i drowned myself in the bath tub last week
i saw myself through the transparency of the water;
my legs, my hands, my stomach connecting to my hips; leading down to my thighs, the top of my feet to the bottom of my toes, my breast that laid upon my chest, my shoulders, my arms -
I ran the tips of my fingers through my body
felt the beats of my heart, the breathes running through my nose onto my cupid bow
i am breathing
but I am not alive.
