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XIII - downs

Simon's pov:

A life of living under the same roof was quite different from what we have been. We were excited and full of beans at the beginning. We clung onto each other all the time and sometimes make love when we both can’t control the heat, on the couch, at the kitchen, while having a shower, against the wall, literally everywhere inside our house.

Been together all the time for a month now make no difference for me, I promise, I was still thrilled every time I woke up next to him. But that was not the same for David anymore, I guessed. A small peck on my cheek was the only thing I’ve get before he leave for school. I’ve tried to cheer him up, making a conversation with him but he choose to be alone in his room.

Still, he quietly slipped next to me when the night get too lonely.

I stuffed the water bottle inside his bag when I heard him coming down the stairs

Sm: ready? you still have your pocket money for lunch or…here-

Dv: no, have some….and Si, you don’t have to drop me off today. I’ll leave, bye

Sm: hold on David, why?

Dv: what…oh no it’s nothing

Sm: don’t give me that shit again…come and sit here

Dv: but Si, it’s late. Can we talk when I get home? I’ll be late

Sm: I don’t care

I might shouted at him because he lowered his head and obeyed me. He sat on the kitchen stool. I was tired of his self independent mood. Whatever was going on, I need to know. I stared at him for a long time. Finally he gulped and spoke

Dv: it is only that I don’t want to bother you. You always get up early just to prepare breakfast for me and to drop me off

Sm: that’s because your school is also on my way to work, that’s not the point. I’ve heard your school sports start within a month

Dv: how did you know that…I haven’t tell you yet

Sm: that’s the point. And why don’t you want to participate despite the fact that you are qualified, care to explain?

Dv: told you I didn’t do swimming anymore

Sm: the reasons being?

I can saw his body tensed thinking for excuses

Sm: david….

Dv: because I don’t like it anymore. There no particular reasons, I don’t want to swim and that’s it

Sm: don’t lie to me…I’m gonna find it one way or another anyway

Dv: so what…what are you going to do? You can’t do anything because I’m not good at it okay? I don’t have that muscled body every of my competitors have. My natural camp behavior doesn’t support that kind of sports . It’s not just a high school boy’s competition; it’s a competition of men. And all I am is a fat fag.

He stood up and slammed the door behind him. I stand puzzled where I am. Shocked. He never raised his voice in front of me nor did I see him so angry and….sad. Was this all about why he changed his behavior a lot lately? What am I supposed to do? I’m so dumb I didn’t even know how to help my poor little man.

David's pov:

I rubbed my tears off using my sleeves. I stayed near the bush for awhile to calm down a bit. I took a long breath and slowly head toward my classroom. It was a long day but eventually the class ended for what it felt like forever.