Sam. My dream boy

Sam My dream boy 5

Chapter 5 - Revelation.

Sam's P.O.V

After I had removed myself from the room, I edged myself on the rafters and swung my legs listening Hailey take a shower.She was adept at shower singing and I chuckled silently as she sang Mike's song of Cooler than me.It suited her well.A tiny voice in me told me that I did not deserve a girl like Hailey.I broke her trust and went into her personal shelter.How low could I sink?I did not love her.I fought against the struggle of seeing her.Of wrapping my arms around her and telling her that she could always count on me.Forever.She would never understand.After the party,I expected nothing but her to hate me,perhaps throw looks of disdain at me if she was ever going to look at me again.I sighed.I felt sick.I reached for my shirt pocket and removed the photo I pinched from her room.I stared at it and looked in wonder.I bored at it wonderingly and took in her features, her soft cream skin slightly brushed with paleness,her jet-black hair which turned gold in the sunlight that was there near the waterfall.I stood there and seemingly looked idiotic and...ugly.Okay,maybe inferior.Suddenly, I heard her speaking to her friend.

I eavesdropped:

"Hello,Marrietta,is it okay for me to come over?Just for the night."I imagined her twirling her hair in anxiousness.My heart felt heavy.God I-no.no.no.no.I did not love her.I did not.I did not.I fought against my real emotions that threatened to overpower me.I just liked her.Right?My thoughts were momentarily dismantled when I heard Hailey hum slightly.She had a beautiful voice.I did not hear her clearly in the bathroom.She was so mesmerising that I was fighting to hold my ground.Just hold her once,feel her warmth.Just like under the tree,with her holding me too.Yes.Yes.No!No!What was wrong with me?I needed to get away.Away from her.I felt weakness creeping into me but as always,Hailey saved me.She sang a line from Taylor Swift's crazier.I couldn't resist.My mind broke.I wolf- whistled.She stopped and at once I regretted the action.She went and entered the balcony. Man,I really felt for her.As she stared high, she saw a shooting star.I squeezed my eyes shut and wished silently."Please let her accept me.Please let her accept me."She started singing again as she scratched on the marble rail.I couldn't resist.I pulled up all my courage and said

(btw u guyz already knw this part so its pointless repeating.lets just skip to where he waits for an answer,k?ty. ;>)

I waited anxiously. She stared at me for what seemed like an eternity.I smiled benignly hoping to re-assure her with no such luck.Finally, I asked,"What's wrong, Hal?Is there anything you're embarassed about?"

She blushed a dark red that I immediately regretted speaking.She seemed on the edge.Finally, she sucked in a deep breath and said, "Sammy,[oh,how I loved it when she adressed me that way] there are tons of things that you don't know about me.I am far from perfect.I'm that type of girl who hates dressing up or even applying lotion.I sweat like crazy and thats why I never hold your hand.You'd feel disgusted and it would hurt me.Not many people know about my knowledge skills and atleast that is what makes them friends with me.Did you know that before I moved in here,I lived in an orphanage?My colleagues laughed at me and taunted me until I jumped off a bridge.I was only seconds from dying when my mother who had played Mrs. Caretaker saved me. She told me the truth and we took off.I cannot hate anyone even if I want to, I need to. Maybe that's the curse my father gave me when he found out I was going to be born. I have always been rejected, thrown and even put in an orphanage. I've been hurt so much, I cannot trust myself anymore. I feel as if I am just living another person's life not my own. And then when you came to town and you made me feel right. I was always so relieved that you were there, tickling me into laughing when I was serious... I couldn't stay mad at you for too long. You made all my pages on my diary and then my friends were bemused. Why have a guy who doesn't even show affection for you? But your presence was enough and then you kissed there on the stage and it was as if the world had turned. You, my only person who I counted on, poured my heart out had hurt me-"she could not finish. Suddenly she was sobbing uncontrollably.Her face was cupped in her palms as she cried and unconciously elevated herself to the hard marble floor.I felt as if a part of me had been mercilessly wrenched apart from the whole.At once,I stroked her black hair and murmured,"I'm sorry Hal.I know what I did was wrong but that slut Ruby had a personal grudge against you.I have never felt this way about anyone before it's scaring me.You've always been a friend to me.You are different from any girl I have met before.Daring,Bold,sure,intelligent,sweet,kind and at home in the outdoors though you keep to yourself.I think Hailey,I..."No!No!