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27. Don't Cry

You couldn't stop feeling guilty hearing his sobs inside his room.

His faint sobs was painful. You hated hearing him cry, and even more since you knew those tears were because of you.

You slide down against your door frame, trying to control your sobs.

Jungkook Focus:

He came to his room, and fell down on the bed, and tried to suffocate himself in the pillows.

He screamed in the pillows, and started crying.

These pillows had endured the assault of his tears ever since he started living alone.

He was afraid of thunder, and he had to cry to sleep every night whenever there was a storm.

And it was stupid of him to confess to her when he already knew the answer.

It felt as if he had taken one step closer, and ten steps backwards.

He knew he loved Y/N.
No, he loves Y/N.

He knows because she is the reason he's crying right now and yet, at the same time her arms are the ones he wants to cry in, as his tells her why he is crying.

He's being reminded more and more that he is incapable of letting her go, regardless of the countless painful things.

She had broken his heart, bit he didn't know why he still loved her.

He had confessed to a couple of girls before, and if they rejected him, he'd hate her.
He wouldn't be able to stand them, and try to hurt them.

But this time, it was different.

He wanted to hug her, kiss her forehead as he always does and stroke her hair to sleep.

He wanted to pick her outfits every day, take her out shopping, and to the best cafes and restaurants he knew, and play games with her as long as she wants.

He wants to cook for her, feed her and help her do the dishes.

He wants to dry her hair, and plait it as he used to do sometimes.

He wants to talk to her all night, and reminisce their childhood memories of playing together, in the lush green lawn, or near the snow-covered railway tracks.

He wants to remember all the times he gave her a piggy back ride and hit her with their shared rabbit plushie.

He wants to talk to her about university, and all his friends and family.

He wants her to let out the small giggles and chuckles, and laugh till tears come out.

He wants to hold her close and give her kisses, like tehy do in movies.

He has never loved anyone more.

Ever since she came into his life, he's been good.
He didn't sleep with anyone, he didn't get wasted and was home early and even stayed at home to give her company.

He cut down his visits to the gaming arcade, and the pubs and strip clubs.

He has been different.

And somehow, she managed to handle him.
Somehow she had taken care of all his desires and lust without even touching him.

She had managed to get him to keep his hormones in one package, although...

The fact that the package bursts everytime he saw her is something different.

Jungkook chuckled when he realised what a horny guy he was, fucking girls everyday.

He was done crying, nothing seemed sad anymore.

If Y/N didn't love him, and wasn't willing to be his girlfriend, it was okay.
It was her dicision anyways.

She could come to him anytime she wanted, and he would always be there, waiting for her and love her when she forgets to love herself.

He was a changed man.

But wasn't she right?

Who would someone love someone who is in love with the idea of being in love?

Why would anyone love someone who didn't know how to love?