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EP 4: 'Cause you're hot then you're cold

Alex's p.o.v

I was woken up by Changbin shouting at Jisung and running after him in circles around the campfire. When I looked up, there was no sign of Chan, and I was laying in the same place with the whole blanket for myself. I thought about last night and felt my face flush and I tried to make it go away by taking my ice-cold hands on my cheeks. I heard Changbin shouting at Jisung to return his beanie angrily, but in a playful way. I watched Jisung's playful face as he ran for his life.

I got up and walked to a window looking at the weather. The blizzard seemed to have died down, which meant that the trio would be returning to their home base. I wondered for a second what I would be doing. I thought about going back home, back to the house where I was raised together with Felix. Maybe he would be there, maybe mom and dad would be there. Then I thought about the last night again. I couldn't stop my mind from wandering back to that moment.

Sharing the same blanket and cuddling for some warmth with a boy wasn't something I thought I would do, not after the apocalypse at least. It was probably nothing, he was most likely just trying to be nice, nothing more. Don't overthink Lex. But how far is it from here to go back home? Would I make it alone? I couldn't stop my thoughts from rushing through my head.

'Hey Changbin? Do you have a map somewhere?' I looked around the place not finding one.

'Oh, yeah, it's in my bag, just take it out' He smiled in a friendly way.

I nodded and went over to his bag to get the map. I sat down on the floor and started planning my journey. Okay so if I avoid this area, and go here, I shouldn't meet anything undead. Hopefully. I do have a warm jacket so it shouldn't be a problem to make it there. But how long will it take? It seemed like it was the brink of dawn not so long ago, and if I walk by the road, I should make it by the evening. Right? Either that or I'll be stuck in woods in the middle of the night with no light. Hm.

I heard someone clearing his throat to get my attention. It was Chan. 'We're leaving, you ready?' he said in an unusually cold voice. It took a moment for me to answer, because usually his voice was warm, and he was smiling. Did something happen? Did I do something wrong? Did I say something wrong or said something in my sleep? I nodded silently while folding the map back up and got my belongings. Chan and the rest walked out first and started to walk slowly, still waiting for me. I took a deep breath and walked out too and looked around. I tried to navigate my surroundings.

'We'll go that way, we should be at the base by the evening' said Jisung while Chan wasn't even looking at me. Is he okay?

'Alright, it was nice meeting you guys. Thanks for everything and I hope you'll get back safely' I smiled and nodded to confirm my words. All three looked at me a bit weirdly, but I couldn't help but see something in Chan's eyes when I said that.

'I'm going home. The house where I grew up isn't too far away from here and I thought maybe I would find my parents and my brother there.'

Jisung protested. 'Do you know how to fight a zombie off?' I thought for a moment, all I have actually done was to run from them. I shook my head slowly while looking down. 'Do you have enough food to last you 3 days?' I shook my head again and felt Jisung take my hand dragging me towards Changbin and Chan. 'Then you're coming with us'.

I was really surprised by what he said and looked at Changbin and Chan to see if they agreed. Changbin nodded smiling and Chan was already walking. It made me a bit sad. After a while with walking, I started to fall behind. Chan went first, Changbin and Jisung walked after him while chatting, and I was walking behind them in silence. I couldn't stop thinking about yesterday. I'm overthinking, aren't I? I took a deep breath and looked around and my eyes went wide open.