𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐫 (ˢᵏᶻ)

woohoo!

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hyeminx mei ying got the email, she's IN 🤘🏻 so we had dinner to celebrate!!

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zhoumeiying thanks for paying guys,,
    → parkjiyeon no problem bub 😊
    → hyeminx yeah it wasn't much 💕

hyeminslover i wish i had a gang like yall 😔

zmyfan omg congrats mei ying!

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mei ying was anxious. today was the day that the results of the job interview were released. the interviewer had said that if she receives an email from the company, it would mean that she got in. if she didn't, it would mean she didn't. so now mei ying sat in her usual cafe with jiyeon and hyemin, her best friends, heart beating and hands trembling as she awaited the results.

"you sure she said emails would be sent at 5pm?" hyemin asked, taking a sip of her coffee.

",,yes." mei ying answered, even though she hoped she had gotten it wrong. the time on her watch read 5.12pm. "let's just wait a bit longer."

'please,' mei ying thought, 'please be a mistake.'

suddenly, a notification interrupted the silence amongst them, sharply contrasting the background noise of the cafe. mei ying snatched her phone off the table to look at it.

an email.

not any email. an email from JYP Entertainment.

"hOL UP," jiyeon stared at the screen. "this is the real thing !! oMG," she hugged mei ying tightly, repeatedly congratulating her and giving her kisses on her cheeks.

"wait REALLY?? CONGRATS MEI YING!" hyemin literally screeched as she joined the hug, the three of them jumping up and down in joy.

"wait wait stop, other people are looking," mei ying told jiyeon and hyemin shyly. she felt strong second hand embarrassment.

"other people are looking?" hyemin glanced around the cafe. "so what? we hot, we young." jiyeon nodded in agreement. "who cares if they're looking?" jiyeon added. "most importantly, our bby got the job!!"

mei ying laughed at jiyeon's comment. though she was over the moon for getting the job at JYPE, she felt even happier that she had such wonderful friends. what did she do to deserve jiyeon and hyemin? she felt so lucky.

"so, JYPE's new in-house composer, when's your first day?" hyemin threw mei ying a wink as she asked.

"um..." mei ying scrolled through the email. "4th march, monday...that's in less than a month!"

everything was happening too fast. she couldn't believe it. working at a big label like JYPE...what should she wear? what should she say to the other staff? how should she greet the groups? or the CEO? would she be good enough? what if her composing is crappy compared to the other composers? what if...

there was a sudden smack to the back of her head. "mei ying!" hyemin held mei ying by the shoulders and shook her. "snap out of it! don't worry, ok? jiyeon and i are sure that you'll be fine! they were the ones who invited you first, remember? have confidence!" mei ying nodded her head slightly. hyemin's words provided some comfort to her worrying mind.

it had always been this way. no matter how much praise or fame her songs or singing received, mei ying was never satisfied. maybe it was a good thing that she always strived to improve herself, but as a result she ended up with a very low self esteem.

mei ying always wondered what others saw in her works.

they were trash.

at first, she tried to improve her composing and her singing, tirelessly working just to reach that desired stage of perfection.

it was never good enough. nothing she did was good enough.

'why am i so useless?' mei ying asked herself countless times. no matter how hard she tried, she never felt like it was good. over time, she became afraid. she was scared that anything that she did would fail and be a waste of space. and so there was a point in time that she stopped composing, or doing things altogether. mei ying became scared of even trying new things that would ultimately result in failure.

mei ying was pessimistic to the point that her family sent her to see a therapist. she was diagnosed with atelophobia. the irrational fear of never being good enough.

this was why getting the job as an in-house composer for JYPE was so important to her. she needed something to prove her worth, to prove that she actually had a use for someone or something. and now that she had gotten in, she was going to cherish this opportunity as much as she could.

mei ying was glad though, for having jiyeon and hyemin. they were the ones who watched over her and made her feel appreciated and loved. they were the reason why she started composing and singing again. it didn't matter if she got the job or not. as long as she had them by her side, she felt like she could take on anything.

"i'm alright guys, just a bit worried that i'll do something stupid on the job or compose horrible songs. maybe i should just not go," mei ying confided in jiyeon and hyemin.

"oh honey," jiyeon frowned. "you are the most amazing composer i've ever met, the sweetest friend i've ever made, and your songs should be hanging in a museum. i know you're scared of making mistakes, but trust me, as a listener of your songs, i can confidently tell you that they are top tier. TOP TIER, understand? don't beat yourself up over things like this."

"exactly. your songs are already better than half of the composers in the industry right now. you're killing it," hyemin added on, patting mei ying on the back soothingly.

"thanks guys," mei ying sniffled. "because of yall, i've been starting to appreciate myself more and accept my mistakes and downfalls...thanks." jiyeon and hyemin proudly smiled at each other.

"group hug time!" hyemin shouted and she lunged towards mei ying, jiyeon collapsing on top of both of them.

although mei ying was still embarrassed and her friends were being public nuisances, her heart was warm.

A/N: hi readers! ok we know we promised that there would only be fluff but we need mei ying to have her own personal struggles so that she can be more realistic! plus the angst isn't that heavy and the story will be mostly fluff so don't worry, this fic won't turn into a full on drama

wish i had a gang like zmy, jiyeon and hyemin though 🥺
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