Him

Two sides

He walks towards us and looks really angry. He pulls us up and into our room. The yelling of our Mom he totally ignores. He locks the door and pushes us to the floor. He kicks us both a few times.

"Please stop!" I begg crying. "You were lying to me, both of you." He yells angry and kicks us again several times.

"We didn't lie to you." I sobb. "And why did your teacher just call me Martinus and asked me why your grades went from a 1 to a 4?" he yells. At least he stopped kicking us. We don't anwser.

He pulls Marcus up by his shirt and takes a kitchen knife from his pocket. "I'll cut a 1 into your hand. If you ever get an other grade, I'll beat the shit out of you." He sais angry.

He opens Marcus' fist violently and puts the knife close to his skin. "Stop moving you worthless child." He yells. Marcus stops moving around and stares at Dad cutting the number deep into his skin.

He is crying so hard. I want to take his other hand like a couple but he would understand it as a brother love thing.

Dad finished cutting his hand and leaves him rolled to a ball and crying. He comes towards me and does the same with my hand. It hurts so bad. I cry so hard.

After cutting my hand he leaves us. I take a look at my bloody hand. I take my phone and write a message to Justice.

T:"Can you please come over. It's an emergency."
J:"I'll be there in 5 minutes."

I sit down on my bed and lift up my shirt to look at the new bruises. I groan in pain when I touch one bruise on my side. "You okay?" Marcus asks. I nodd weakly.

Suddenly there is a knock on the window and Justice looks at us from there. I get up in pain and open the window.

"I thought he wouldn't hurt you if your Mom is home?" She asks shocked and helps me back to my bed. "Yeah but he found out about our lies beacuse of the grades." I say and groan when she takes a look at my stomache.

"Why are your hands bleeding?" She asks and starts cleaning the blood. Marcus tells her everything from the begining. While he explaines she cleans my hand and bruises.

"You have to tell someone. You need help." She sais and starts taking care of his cut and bruises. "No." We both say at the same time. "Why?" She asks.

"If it's not working, he'll hurt Emma aswell." I say and my eyes tear up again. "Please at least think about it." She beggs. To calm her down I nodd.

"Well you should go to bed now. It's already 10 p.m." She sais a bit calmer. She covers both of us with the blanket and kisses my cheek. She's already on the way out of the window when Marcus sais something:

"Martinus. Can you sleep with me?" He beggs softly with tears in his eyes. I stare at him unsure what to anwser. If I do sleep in the same bad as him he'll propably find about my feelings for him.

But if I don't do it I'll break his heart. He is more than just the boy you see from the outside. He has a side that only a few people know. To be exact only me, Emma, Mom and Justice.

This side of him loves to cuddle with me and kisses my cheek and forehead all the time. This side of him is vulnerable. The side everyone sees always looks emotionsless or fakes a emotion but the other side is full of emotions.

He cries and laughs. He loves and hates. He feels for real.

His look is killing me. His teary face and eyes which show so much hope. I turn to Justice hoping to get help but she just shruggs her shoulders.

Should I sleep with him or not?