Him

"I do love him."

We walk trough the streets of Trofors but there is this an akward silence.

"Okay. Why did he run away?" Justice breaks the silence. I tell her what happend but the truth. Not with a girl but with him and me.

"Did you know how he feels?" I ask in the end. "It was pretty obvious." She sais and shruggs with her shoulders. "Yeah." I say.

"What do you feel for him?" She asks. "I don't really know. I like him and I love him I think. More than a brother but I'm also in love with my girlfriend I think." I say.

"You think?" She asks. "I don't know. It's not the same anymore. Not because of her. Because of me." I say a bit sad.

"Well maybe you love him too?" She asks. "I do love him." I say not that unsure anymore. "You have to tell him." She sais. "I will. If he comes back." I say and get sad again.

"Not if. When." Justice sais. She huggs me again.

My phone ringing brings me back to reality. "Mom?" I ask. "Come home it's already late. You can continoue searching tomorrow." Mom sais worried. "Okay." I say sad.

"What is it? Did they find him?" Justice asks hopeful. I shake my head. "I have to go home. Mom is worried." I say. "I'll bring you home." She sais and forces a smile.

She and Martinus have a special friendship. They are like siblings, a couple, one night stands and best friends in one. They had some wild nights already but never a realtionship.

She is kind of our doctor. When Dad beat us up she was there and took care of us. She and Martinus cuddle really often. They are really good friends.

They met in a therapie group  for people with suicidal thoughts. Yeah he used to have bad depressions. He has been cutting and later also hitting walls and trees.

And Dad beat him up aswell at this time. It got to much for him porpably because he tried to kill himself.

How? He walked infront of a truck. He had so much luck. The truck could stop early enough so he only got hit lightly. But it was a huge truck.....

When he recently broke his hand I first thought he started again with hitting and hurting himself. But it really was just an accident.

"Marcus?" Justice snapps me out of my thoughts. "Are you still here?" She asks and waves her hand infront of my face.

"Uhm yeah. " I say and look around. We arrived at my house. "Goodnight." She sais and huggs me again tight before I enter the house. Mom is at work and Dad is watching TV.

I sneek upstairs into our room. He didn't hear me. I lock the door and throw myself on his bed. Tonight I cry myself to sleep.

I wake up by someone shaking me. "Marcus. They found him." My Mom sais happy. I immideatly sit up and smile. "Come on get up." She sais happy and leaves the room. I get up and dress.

I run downstairs. Right when I'm in the livingroom it rings at the door. "I'll go." Mom sais. "Martinus." She sais and huggs him.

He doesn't look happy at all. He looks emotionsless. Why are his hands cuffed to his back? Also Mom sees the cuffs now. "Take them off him." She sais a bit mad.

"We have to talk to him again at the headquater." Officer Callahan sais. "Why?" I ask now. "He stole food in a shop." He sais. "We just wanted you to see him.

Asshole. I thought to myself. "Let's go." Another officer sais. "Can I come with you?" I ask. Officer Callahn looks at my Mom, who nodds.

We walk out to the police car and they place Martinus inside. One officer settles his seatbelt. Then we drive to the headquater.