THE END OF THE FUCKING WORLD

CHAPTER FIVE

When he came back to the car she had fallen asleep again, and he smiled at her as he stood from the passenger seat window.

He didn't want to wake her so he decided to carry her into their room as gently as he could manage. James was glad she was with him, she had a way of making him feel like he mattered. Not just to other people, but he felt like he mattered to himself and that filled him with a wholeness he couldn't fathom.

Her carried her as though she was a baby, carefully and quietly. Glancing down every now and then just to get a look at her beautiful face.

He wanted to trace every inch of her features, and get a full understanding of her body and how it worked. He wanted to know what made her tick, both physically and mentally.

He realized then that he would devote his life to protecting her, she was too soft to be left to the ways of the world. James knew he could keep her safe.

He climbed the outside stairs to the second story of the shabby motel and successfully made it to the door without disturbing the small girl's sleep.

He realized it would be difficult to keep her asleep when he realized his hands were full and the room key was in his back pocket.

He did his best to shift the position of his arms so that he could hold her with one hand, but he was in unsuccessful as he heard her voice beautiful voice yet again.

"James?" She spoke through a small and confused voice that James found absolutely maddening. She was so cute he didn't know how to handle it.

"Shit." He didn't mean to say that, it just sort of slipped out. "Sorry I didn't mean to wake you, I was trying to get the door open." She lifted her head so that she could look up at him through her hair as he spoke and he almost lost his words at the sight of her adorable sleepy innocence.

They held so many unspoken words behind them, it was almost as though they were trying to tell him a story. Maybe they were. James wanted to know everything they'd seen.

"'S okay, I don't mind." She smiled at him and laid her head back to it's original position against his chest.

James remembered he was trying to get the door open and asked if he could set her down while he did so, to which she responded with a nod and James let her down.

She moved in closer to him as he took the key from his back pocket and he couldn't help but smile as he opened the door.

The moment they stepped foot into the room James looked at the bed and immediately remembered their exchange in the car. He smirked at the thought, and couldn't wait for an opportunity to continue their act.

It seemed she had the same idea because when they sat down on the bed she looked over at him all of the innocence seemed to have disappeared.

James thought it was hot. He wondered if that meant he should try something. He didn't have time to figure it out though.

She moved closer to him and crawled into his lap. James held back a sigh when she grazed him and couldn't help but ask him self if she did it on purpose or not.

Before he could figure it out his lips were on hers and he forgot about the question entirely. All that existed in that moment was James and Morgan. Nothing else.

No missing parents, no Alyssa, no abusive boyfriend. Just the two of them. It was pure bliss.

She went to run her fingers through James' hair again and he couldn't help but let out a sigh this time. It was the best feeling in the world.

He placed his hand under her chin as the two of them leaned further into the kiss. James barely knew what he was doing but with Morgan he didn't feel like he needed to have all the answers. He just did what he felt was the right thing to do.

He was content like that, lips and hands tangled up within each other. His counterpart however, had other plans.

She suddenly rolled her lower half into James in the same torturously slow manner James had done to her in the car. At that James couldn't help but let out a soft moan and he felt her smile into the kiss.

She ceased her actions and James opened his eyes to figure out why. He watched idly as she pushed him into the bed and moved her legs so that she was straddling him again.

James enjoyed the view as he watched her move carefully so as not to hurt him. Then she came back to him and their lips met once more. It was only a moment before James felt her leg slip between his own and he felt things he'd never felt before.

Sure they'd grinded in the car, but this was different. He became so undone that he couldn't take it anymore. After a few more seconds of the torturous act she was inflicting upon him he decided to take matters into his own hands.

He flipped the two of them over and pinned her hands down on the bed where they rested beside her head. It was James' turn to take control.

He didn't know what enacted him to do such a thing but she seemed to like it so he didn't care. He kept her hands firmly on the bed as he leaned in to kiss her.

The kiss only lasted for a moment though as he moved down to her neck so that he could bite it the same way she had done to him in the car. He knew how it felt and he wanted to see how she reacted when the same was done to her.

James bit down suddenly and without warning. It was like his own experiment, he wanted to see what she would do. When he bit her she arched her spine and met her hips with his, followed by a slow and needy moan. He liked the response he got, it made them both desperate for more.

James thought the exchange was truly divine, if not ethereal. He could see himself with Morgan for the rest of his life. The two of them free to do anything they pleased, could live as non conventionally as they wanted too.

He loved the way her skin felt. He could feel that there was more underneath. She had so much to her, there was hours and hours of information to unpack.

James could tell that she had been through the ringer just as he had. He knew that because of this they understood each other in a way no one else could. They were connected in ways that they couldn't see.

Even though they had only know each other a short amount of time, James already knew that he loved her.