bestfriend - payton moormeier

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guys. i based this part off a song that i relate to in SO SO many ways. it's called 'Myself' by Layton Greene. i recommend listening to that song just to you know get it. love you guys.
alys pov

me and payton were just chilling on our phones when i got a text.

anthony reeves 🥺
hey, can we talk? come outside the hotel.

i had to think about to think about that.

alyssa parker 🙁
you fucking lucky i'm nice. give me ten minutes.

i knew it wouldn't take ten minutes. but i wanted to take the stairs and just think.

-flashback-
nobody's pov

alyssa. the poor girl. she stood in front of her mirror with mascara running down her face.

she raised her shirt up and just cried more.

"WHY WASNT I GOOD ENOUGH FOR HIM?" she questioned her self loudly.

"why didn't he love me." she questioned again.

she collapsed onto the floor, and her bestfriend hannah rushed into the room, with elmo by her side.

"baby, whats wrong?" she pulled alyssa into a tight hug.

"i'm not good enough, ILL NEVER BE GOOD ENOUGH." she cried into hannah's shoulder.

"why, what did she have that i didn't? why would he choose her over me?" she got out of hannah's grip and punched the wall.

"no no no," elmo said pulling her down to the chair.

"babe can you step out for me?" hannah asked elmo.

"ofcourse. love you alyssa. just know you are so much more then what you think you are." he smiled sadly.

"love you." she said.

alyssa had calmed down sitting on the bed.

hannah held her hand, and hugged her.

"alyssa, he played with your heart. now you may never be the same you were, but maybe that isn't such a bad thing. take it as a lesson, and work it out to be a blessing. he made you put up a wall. now, in most cases, walls are a bad thing. but in this case? it's a really good thing. it will make you more lenient on yourself and not other people. though you always have me, having yourself is whats most important. he loved you, he really did. but he played his cards, and he did it in the worst way possible. i remember days where you'd question yourself, and feeling like you weren't good enough. but you definitely were. you were more then enough. boys tend to fuck shit up, not even meaning to. but, he always made you feel like the only person in the world. so, still feel that way girl. if only one person can make you feel like that, then you can definitely teach yourself to do the same. i love you so much alyssa, you WILL get through this." hannah finished telling her.

"but hannah, i loved him when i didn't love myself. he said he loved me, but he clearly only loved himself. i'll NEVER be the same. i feel he only wanted me for my body, and you know. i had bad days where he chose to be with the boys, but sometimes i wonder if he was with gabbie. was this a thing for longer then i realized?" alyssa asked.

hannah sighed, she didn't know the answer. but she hoped it wasn't true.

pov over.

i shook out of the flash back and realized i had tears coming out of my eyes.

i can't believe i let myself get so down, i really put myself through it.

i was at the hotel doors. i opened it and looked around.

it was so cold, i shivered. i found anthony sitting on a bench.

"hi.." i said as i sat down beside him. i quickly wiped the tears before he noticed.

"alyssa, i didn't think you were coming." he sighed.

"well i'm here." i chuckled awkwardly. "speaking of, why am i?" i asked.

"we need to talk." anthony replied.

"nah, no shit. i may have been dumb enough to not realize you were cheating, but i'm not that stupid." i said as i took the petty road.

"aly please, please don't make me feel guilty." he pleaded.

"i have every right to." i huffed. damn i'm a petty bitch.

"i know you do, but i want to get past that. i want to be friends." he wiped his nose.

my lips started chattering.

anthony took off his sweatshirt and gave it to me.

i put it on and smiled gratefully.

"i'll be friends with you anthony. but if you get into another relationship, just keep me away from it. no, i won't get jealous. i'll just be really upset. i've came along way, and i just don't want to hurt myself again."

he nodded and pulled me into a hug. "aly, i loved you  like i'll never love anyone else. i STILL love you, and i hate myself for hurting you. but she got me when i was vulnerable, i know that's not an excuse, but i'm so sorry." he said as he cried into my shoulder.

"don't cry ant, i believe you, and u forgive you." i said as i hugged him back.

i was pulled onto his lap,  and he just cried his heart out.

"i love you alyssa."

i sighed, "and i love you, but maybe it's better for us to be friends." i sadly smiled.

"maybe." he sighed.

he noticed i was still cold. "come on, let's go inside." i nodded.

he walked me all the way to my door.

"aly can i have one mo-" he started, but i interrupted but placing my lips on his.

"more kiss.." he finished.

i chuckled.

"goodnight ant," i smiled.

"night ba-alyssa." he walked off.

no lies i was lowkey feeling gittery. maybe i have missed that more that i think.

i sighed and walked into the hotel room and went straight to the bathroom.

i looked into the mirror and just cried, god i missed him.

i calmed down and walked back to the bed part.

"why do you have anthony's hoodie on?" payton said harshly.

to be continued..

hehe , hi guys. i wuv u.