wish
──────────the moment I remembered
the pen I later found out I lost,
is the moment I now regret the most.I took steps forward,
the class in my view,
as I returned there
without any clue.then I saw you reading it
you noticed me seeing you.
wish I could turn back the time
wish I have never moved.maybe you wanted to speak
but I didn't listen.I turned around and ran
ran
ran
ran
while there you still stood
I ran so fast—like a blast,
ran the furthest my legs could.the tears blurred my sight,
streaming down my cheeks,
having an imaginary fight,
wetting the tips of my sleeves.I cried endlessly
until the sun rose the next day
but the choking pain in my chest
still outside found its way.I wish I never was.
I wish I could vanish—just like that.
I wish I could choose not to be.
I wish to unnoticeably leave.I wish you never picked up the trash
—my stupid feelings written down
I tore into bits in one quick lash.Jisung, why did you care?
why don't you play fair?
I want to let you go
my head hanging low.but somehow—it's still hard
for me to end the game,
to discard the last card.
YOU ARE READING
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Fanfictionchenle's collection of feelings towards his best friend. ♡♡♡ ᴄʜᴇɴʟᴇxᴊɪsᴜɴɢ ⟶ ɴᴄᴛ ᴅʀᴇᴀᴍ