SIN{Punk Romeo & Juliet Harry Styles}

Ch.2

FIRST OF ALL WHO SAW THE LIVE STREEM? NARRY WAS ON FIRE, LIAM WAS SEXY, ZAYN OH MY GOD AND LOUIS WAS A CUTE LITTLE BANANA. IM STILL TRYING TO RECOVER FROM HARRY'S AND NIALL'S HUG AND LAUGHS AND I JUST NEED MORE!!WHY THE INTERVIEW WAS ONLY 30 MINUTES? UGHHH.

Anna's POV

''And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't wanna go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
When sooner or later it's over
I just don't wanna miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am ''

The lyrics were coming out of my lips, lowly, almost as a whisper as I was walking down the street, watching carefully around me. Did you ever have this weird feeling that the road you walked thousand of times is suddenly completely different? That the lights are somehow lower or that the trees in the end of the the grey pavement are taller, fuller? Did you ever feel that the shadows are following you, ready to pull you in somewhere, in a dark, unknown place where you won't be able to escape no matter what?

Afraid.

Nervous.

Alone.

Why things seem always so different in night? Why all our fears seem more real when the dark is falling?

''Stupid as always Anna'' Ι murmured to myself shaking my head to clear my head. ''No one is here. You are fine.''

I opened my step so Ι would be back to my dorm sooner but my body was feeling heavy and Ι could barely walk properly with my head still tipsy. I was dragging my feet hoping that soon Ι would be laying on my bed, warm, safe, probably receiving messages from him complaining again about how silly Ι acted tonight.

I didn't need that, Ι didn't need him lecturing me what was wrong and what was right. I didn't need his friends watching my moves every time I was out with El or flirting with a guy. Most of all I didn't need him around. It just didn't feel right having your older, punk brother walking you to your room after class just to make sure you'll be safe as he used to say.

Safe from what?

Safe from who?

'' I promised them that I will take care of you Annabel.'' His voice was angry, his eyes a deep brown colour.

''You promised them? Really?'' Ι asked back, irony tone. ''I won't mess up with Lauren , I won't be like them dad, I won't take drugs , don't worry mum . '' I mimicked his voice when he was talking to our parents three years ago. ''You promised them so many things but it's pretty clear to me and to every single one that you can't keep any of your promises. You're not that guy.''

He came closer narrowing his eyes into mine ''You can't understand.''

''And I don't want to. I don't need you close , I'm completely capable to walk to my room or to a party without you and a few pairs of surprised eyes staring us.''

''That's all? That's your problem? That they are looking  us?''

''I don't like it!'' I answered loudly, feeling the temperature of my body raising.

''Your fucking problem!'' he yelled back. He's always doing the same thing. ''Why you think I give a shit about what all of them think about me?''

''Well I do!'' my voice still high ''I can't keep listening them talking about me , or pointing me like I did something I shouldn't have done. I can't keep with their comments '' Oh look the punk's sister.''

He took a deep breath, running his fingers through his short, brown hair. ''Look... Just don't pay any attention to them Anna.''

''It's not that easy.''

''Try it at least?'' He asked shaking his head ''God why you are so difficult? Why you can't just say thank you for having my back? Thank you for all that you do , I really appreciate it Liam?''

I formed a crocked smile ''Because it's not true. ''

''If mum was...''

''But she is not here!'' I cut him off ''Drop it! ''

''I promised them I would take care of you and I will, like it or not so you better get used to me and the boys around you for the next three years sunshine.''

I bit my lips trying hard to keep my mouth shut but it was impossible ''I don't need your drama and your messed up life next to me James Payne! Take your secrets and stay as far as possible from me.''

Liam put his hand in his pockets taking out a package of cigarettes. His eyes were looking the ground, his lips had formed a soft smirk, making me wonder why he was reacting so calm. I knew he hated when we were calling him with his middle name; he almost couldn't hear it after what happened...

''You know Anna you are a Payne too.'' He light up the cigarette ''You must never forget that.''

''I don't think I can'', I answered ironically ''You keep on pointing it to me like it's the most important thing. '' He lifted his head , so our eyes could finally meet again. '' I just need some air.'' I added low voice '' I feel that I don't have any air anymore. I feel breathless in the life I'm doing, the life you are making me live.''

Liam shrugged his shoulders ''You will understand some day. I know you can't see it now but I am doing it for our family. Give me some time Annabel and you'll feel free again; i just need some time.''

''Why?'' the question escaped my lips. ''Time for what?''

''Revenge.''