monster (boyxboy)

I thought I was safe 19

I found a better pic of Nolan!  I think this one is better!

Nolan's

It's been two days, two days of being free two days of being able to leave if I want or when I want, but I been scared for my life they have not found him they think he skipped town or something like that but I have a feeling that he's closer then they think no I know he's close to me I know. I keep having this feeling that I'm being watched but they just say it's because what I want through but something is wrong I just can't put my finger on it. I been jumping every time someone comes in or even talks to me and for some reason I can't stop stuttering I think I do it because it made him get less mad or something but that's not the worst thing that's been happening, I been having really bad dreams I been waking up screaming his name it's always his name why can't I get away from him, my life is surrounded by him and I hate it, but one good thing is that Marcus is coming today I missed him so much I wonder if he's doing ok eating well and so on like he read my mind I hear the door open and Marcus walk in I jump like I always do fuck why can't I stop that shit. He looks at me with a shocked look I forgot I took my shirt off and you can see all my bruises and cuts on me I go to grab my shirt but before I can I hear him walk close to me I look back at him and he sits on the chair next to my bed he won't take his eyes off me, he reached out and touched the bruise on my face then he went down to the one my chest then my stomach.

I look in his eyes and see this sadness I have never seen before he was about to say something but my brother spoke " yo dude remember his doesn't like touching so..." my brother came in and I see he brought us food but he stops in his place when he sees I'm letting him touch me and not only that but only my dr and nurse have really seen all my bruises, this is the first time he saw them, I just realized that Marcus his touching me " ca-can you stop you-touching me please." I say in a small voice he quickly pulls away I feel bad now " oh fuck sorry I" he said it was like he was trying to figure out what he wanted to say " it's all good I'm just not ready yet" I said I reach out and touch his hand and give a small smile. I put my shirt on, my brother walked over to the other side of the bed and pulled up a chair he got all my favorites I feel so special " but the slut literally feel off the stage told her she should've not worn those shoes" Marcus said with a laugh I laugh too he was telling me how graduation want for everyone " yeah everyone was so happy it was amazing you should have been the" he stopped his realized what he was saying he just looked at his hands. I reach out for his hands I stop my self for a second but I put my hand on his, he looked up at me real quick I look over to my brother " can you give us a minute" I said with a smile, when I hear the door closed when I knew it was just me and my best friend I have liked him more than a best friend for a couple of years now but I know my places I know I'm a nobody a loser and only one person will love me wait what am I saying? No no I didn't let him get in my head no no no I start to feel my hands shack I look down at my hands because I know what next tears but I promise myself ones I was out of that house I would not cry but I cannot help to feel this sadness in me I feel someone out there hand on my I look up and see Marcus with sad in his eyes  

"What is wrong talk to, I'm here now I will never let him get close to you I will never ever let him touch you ever again!" He said in a sweet voice, I look at him with tears running down my face
" it was like I was an abused dog, he said he loved me but if I did anything wrong or make him angry he would hit me or worse... I hate him I hate him so fucking much, but I cannot get him out of my head, the things he would say to me like no one will ever love me like he did or shit like that. It's like the one time I was cooking dinner and I dropped a glass and it busted all over the place, I knew I was fucked if I broke anything it was a really bad thing, but he come in yelling and screaming about how I was nothing to anyone like him how he loved me and only me then he slapped me and it made me fell into the glass I got cuts all over my legs and he just laughed he walked over to me and crouch down in front of my face and he said something I will never ever will forget ' you will never forget me you will remember me to the day you die I could be gone and you will still cry over me, do you want to know why? Because I loved you so much I got this house just for us I could go to prison for some of this shit I did for you but I didn't care I just cared about you because I love you more then your brother your best friend your dad I will never let you forget."

I say as I was sobbing even Marcus was crying " and I told my self I would never let him win but he fucking won, he knows were I'm they keep telling me it's not possible but they don't know him as I do, I know more about him than anyone, because of this I just have a bad feeling Marcus, I just want to feel safe and I don't and that's how he's winning but I don't know how to make it stop, I will be like this for a long time." I say wow I want without stuttering but I look up in to his  eyes and he looks in mine he was about to say something when his phone started  ringing he picks up and his face turns white, he hangs up the phone and gets up " I'm sorry I have to go, i-it's my m-mom" with that he headed to the door " M-Marcus wha-what's wrong?" But he said nothing and walked out of the door.  I get this bad feeling in my stomach the next thing I know my hospital phone starts to ring got up and want to the phone and picked it up.

" h-hello?" I said " awww are you still stuttering? You know I hate that. I told you not to live, didn't I? But of course you didn't listen but what I learned you didn't want to leave you kept telling them no so you were a good boy but I missed you. I thought I told you yo never talk to Marcus again that makes me mad baby and you know what happens when I get mad" no this can't happen this is a dream this is not him how does he know no no no " I-I'm so-sorry baby pl-please forgive me" what the fuck am I saying " it's ok I'll be there soon enough to come get you, it might take me a little but I'll be there. But to remember that bad things will happen longer and longer that we are not together I love you, goodbye baby." And with that Mason hanged up I drop the phone and fell to my knees I just start to scream I can't stop I thought I was free but I will never be free from Mason...... to be continued

HEYYY lovely's I hope you like this chapter I'm sorry it took so long but I will not make y'all wait for the next one if you like this please vote and comment what you thought well bye bye for now