"Just Stop Trying."

[5]

[Back to Frank's P.O.V]

"Bye honey, we'll see you in a couple of weeks." my mom said as she kissed the top of my forehead. Great. My parents are going on another business trip!

"The money is on the kitchen table. Use it responsibly. That means-"

"No alcohol, drugs and no junk food. Got it." I finished the sentence for her. I've heard this too many times. She weakly smiles at me and closes the car door. I watch them drive away. Mom and dad always go somewhere because of their jobs and I barely see them these days. I miss them, a lot. I'm alone most of the time. Sometimes they even leave me alone on holidays. I've spent 2 of my birthdays alone and I'm pretty sure I will be alone on Christmas this year.

I sigh and walk back inside to not freeze to death. It's October so it's expected.

When I go inside I see I've gotten a new message from Gerard. We've been talking more often which makes me really happy. He's actually a lot nicer then I thought.

I take off my shoes and go sit in front of the fireplace where I've already gathered a mountain of blankets. I open Instagram and check out the message.

@gerard.way: Mind if I ask you, but... why do you not show your face? I'm sorry if this upsets you! :,)

@fun_ghoul: Oh! It's totally fine! And I just don't feel comfortable with doing so, I guess. I want people to judge me based on my skills and not looks.

@gerard.way: Interesting...

@gerard.way: But do you mind describing yourself to me?

@fun_ghoul: Lets see...

@fun_ghoul: I'm short.

@gerard.way: very descriptive:,)

@fun_ghoul: I have black hair and light skin.

[Gerard's P.O.V]

Black hair and light skin...

@gerard.way: Anything else?

@fun_ghoul is typing...

@fun_ghoul: Uhh... I like to wear comfy clothes? Idk lol.

@gerard.way: Veerrryyy interesting-

@fun_ghoul: If you say so.

@gerard.way: I have to go now...!:(

@fun_ghoul: Aw... okay! Well, talk to you later! ♡

@gerard.way: You too! Bye! ♡

I put my phone down on my bed and sit next to it, staring at the black screen. I let out a shaky breath and lay down on my bed, staring at the ceiling. What if Frank was Fun Ghoul? My thoughts quickly shift to Frank, only Frank. Some good thoughts, some dirty.

[Smut warning: Gerard basically just jerks off lol-]

Ah, fuck. Now I'm just thinking about Frank and his delicate hands and gentle body and... soft porcelain skin... fuck... I have a fucking hard-on, don't I?

I close my eyes and slowly slide my hand down my stomach to my crotch. I bite my lip and start undoing the buttons on my jeans, relieved that the tight fabric is off. I start thinking about Frank's soft lips and what they could do... his soft looking thighs, slightly pudgy but extremely cute. Just thinking about him straddling me and us kissing passionately...

My hand had already slid inside my boxers and I gently start to stroke my hardening dick. I put my other hand over my mouth to cover up my moans. I start going a little faster, imagining that it was Frank who was doing this right now. I use my precum as a way to slick up my dick and make this process more enjoyable.

My mind is screaming Frank Frank Frank! and all the dirty things I would to to him. I bit my lip harder, trying to hold the moan that is about to escape my mouth.

My mind blurs as my hand movements fasten. Not long after I reach my orgasm and come all over my hand. I slightly pant, calming down from my bliss.

[End of smut 🥵]

I really just fucking came from the thought of Frank, didn't I? Oh, fuck.

I go into the bathroom and wash my hands looking into the mirror. I look at my fading red hair. I should really re-dye it. I wonder how Frank would look like with colored ha- no! Stop thinking about him...!

I groan and splash cold water on my face. Fucking hell...

I go downstairs to see Mikey talking on  the phone. He's chuckling at something. He's probably on the phone with Pete, his best friend. He sees me and says a quick "I have to go" to Pete before hanging up. Am I really that obvious when it came to problems? Or maybe it's just Mikey and his mind reading power or something, I don't know.

"Sit down." Mikey says, patting on the spot next to him on the couch. I sit down, getting comfortable.

"I know something is wrong, Gee. Tell me about it."

I look down and a thought hits me like lighting. Oh, fuck... my eyes widen.

I look at Mikey and swallow down the saliva in my mouth.

"I...I think I'm gay."