Of Course I Love You

The L Bomb

Christen's POV

"You". Her words left me speechless. Me? How could I possibly scare her? Did I do something wrong? I fuck up most things but I didn't think I did anything to scare her.

"Me? Why?". The words left along with a crack in my voice. I was already on the verge of a breakdown. Her honest and golden eyes found mind and I felt entrapped within them. I was getting lost in the honey color until she spoke.

"Loving you is scary. I'm scared. They say you do what you learn right? I never learned love. I had my mom but after that I had nothing. My dad doesn't fucking love me Chris. His idea of love is a check or new Rolex. What if I'm like that? What if I don't know how to love? Or what if you can't love me?"

"Tobin". Her eyes remained glued to the sand as she fought away the tears. I slowly lifted her chin upwards so she would look at me. "I already love you. We will be on this adventure together and I promise I will always be there to remind you that you are loved".

Her built body tackled mine into a long and warm hug. It felt nice to have her in my arms but it was quickly taken away.

"I love you too". She connected our lips in a fiery kiss and let me tell you, I never get tired of kissing Tobin Heath. I may have been her first kiss but she is an amazing kisser. Her lips are so soft and enticing, I wish I could kiss her all the time. She learned from the best.

My alarm went off on my phone signaling that I had to be home to help decorate.

"Hey Tobs sorry to ruin our whole moment but, my mom needs me home. You can still come to the party right? Do you need a ride?"

"Yeah of course I'll be there with you. I think I may convince my aunt to let me borrow one of her cars to drive over but if not I can always ask Jess. Now" she kissed my lips gently in between her sentence and I couldn't help but smile. All I ever do with Tobin is smile. "Go get ready for that party. Text me when to come beautiful". I attached our lips in another slow and passionate kiss.

"Alright. I love you"

"I love you too". I couldn't help but jump with joy.

"What was that you goof?"

"I just like hearing you say that you love me". She grabbed me by the strings of my pants and pulled me into her arms.

"Well Cap I do, very very much".

I pecked her lips one more time. I didn't want to leave in the slightest but I knew my mom needed help so I bid my girlfriend a goodbye. My hella attractive and sexy girlfriend that I don't know how I managed to get but I'm very thankful I did. She's everything to me and I'm in love with her. It's scary and dangerous but completely worth it. Tobin Heath was worth any drama and trouble and I knew that. She was a girl to keep and I would not let her slip from my grasp. She was mine and she'd be mine forever. I seriously see myself with this girl for the rest of my life and I've never felt like this before.

Being with Tobin is my favorite thing to do. Her laugh is my favorite sound and her smile my favorite sight. She makes me the happiest I have ever been. This eighteen year old somehow managed to bring back thrill and excitement to my old twenty year old self.

The whole car ride home I spent thinking of my favorite girl. Some may say I'm obsessed but she's mine, I'm allowed to be obsessed and crazy in love with her.

"Hey sweetie how was Tobin's house?"

"Hey mom it was really great". I popped a grape from the counter in my life as she eyes me suggestively.

"I bet it was 'really great'".

"Yeah...why are you acting like I did something?"

"Better cover that hickie on your neck before Tyler sees it". My face flushed red in embarrassment.

"Shit" I cursed under my breath.

"Heard that". I groaned at her obnoxious nature but smiled because she wasn't upset I had a mark on my neck. I mean I am twenty so I guess it's whatever.

Tyler already wants to interrogate and embarrass Tobin and I so I better get this covered and quick.

This is just the hectic life I'm living at the moment and honestly, I wouldn't change anything for the world. I'm finally happy and I finally feel like the real Christen.