Behind Closed Doors ( editing )

Chapter Thirty Five (edited )

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Dekia woke up and tried to sit up in the bed but realized she was being held in someone's arms. She looked down at the tattoos on the arm and immediately pushed him off of her causing him to wake up .

" What are you doing here? " She asked looking over at Zo .

" You called me over here last night " He said causing her to look under the covers and she sighed in relief when she saw they both fully clothed . " We didn't do nothing , I would never take advantage of you like that . You just called me crying and shit and I came over here to make sure you was straight that's it " He said sincerely .

" So how did that end up with you sleeping in my bed ? " She asked .

" You wanted me to hold you and it's been a minute since I held you and I knew I wouldn't get the opportunity when you're sober so I took advantage of that " He explained .

" So I called you over here to hold me ? " She asked for confirmation .

" No you called me over here to express your feelings for me " He said .

" and what exactly did I say ? " She questioned .

" You know how you feel about me so you know what you said " He said . It didnt make any sense to him to tell her what she'd say because he knew because of her boyfriend she was gonna deny it. .

" Look whatever I said doesn't mean anything I was drunk and i'm with Matthew " She said . She knew more than likely she probably told him something about her still loving him which she did but she hoped he didn't get the wrong idea because she was drunk and that didn't mean anything.

" I know Dekia and I know lately i've been real childish about the situation about how everything went down with us because I didn't want to let you go and It pains me to see you with another nigga but it's time for me to be a man about the situation I made my bed and it's time for me to lay in it . No matter how much I want us to get back together right now he's the better nigga for you. He's giving you some thing I never did and that's loyalty . I can't force you forgive me and take me back so if you're happy with him then be happy baby girl  . I love you Dekia with all my heart I swear to God I do so i'm always here for you but ima let you go and be happy  " He said.

" So you're just giving up ? " She asked . She knew she was supposed to be happy but for some reason she was a little upset that he wasn't putting up more of a fight for her if he claimed to love her so much .

" I'm not the man I need to be for you right now . I don't know when i'll be the man or if i'll ever be but it's not fair of me to try to be selfish and keep you for myself when I know I won't be able to return the favor . I'm done with hurting you " He said and she nodded .

" I don't think you're ready for a relationship at all Lorenzo . I don't like Kierra one bit but it's wrong of you to string her alone and hurt her too " Dekia said.

" Im not with her anymore . I only got with her to piss you off but I agree with you , I just needa be single and do what i do that way no body gets hurt " He said and she nodded . " I'm about to head outta here , I love you " he told her .

" I love you too " She said as she gave him a hug before getting up and walking him to the door . Her heart dropped to the pit of her ass when she saw Matthew standing on her porch with flowers and chocolate covered strawberries in his hand about to knock on the door .

" What was he doing here ? " he asked her as he stepped into the house and paused when he saw everyone asleep all over the messy living room .

She opened her mouth to speak but was cut off by Zoey and Destiny coming out of Destiny's room . " Can you make some breakfast? " Destiny asked .