Loving Ashton

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"Welcome back class, I hope you guys enjoyed your break because from next month and the rest of the school year we'll be testing." Mrs. Walker said with the biggest smile on her face. I looked over at Ashton's seat to find it vacant. I bit my lip and looked back at Mrs. Walker who was asking questions about our break. Everyone else answered with a lengthy and interesting response. I didn't really interested though, My eyes kept darting from the door to Ashton's chair, just waiting for him to walk into class cooly. But he didn't, "What about your break, Summer?" Mrs. Walker said, My heart raced and my cheeks grew hot as I felt everyone's eyes on me.

"Uh, It was great." I squeaked. "Not even a pinch of details?" She teased, I gave her a small shrug "I mean, I spent it with my friends. We didn't really do much." I replied. She smiled and left it at that. For the remainder of the class period, she let us do whatever as long as we didn't get rowdy. I glanced at my phone thinking there would be an explanation to his absence either from him or Chris but the only thing that popped on my screen was a notification from Flo telling me that my period was on its way and to drink plenty of water.

I looked over at the door one more time and it actually opened, I perked up as the person stepped into the room and my mood deflated immediately, It wasn't Ashton. It was just the janitor coming in to grab the bin from beside Mrs. Walker's desk. I put my head down and sighed, My mind racing with the worse possible thoughts.

Like what if Cupid kidnapped him, It may sound ridiculous but with all the terrible and twisted things Ashton said about his father I sure as hell wouldn't put it past him.

Or even worse, what if he decided to go through his plans and tried to kill Cupid today only to have it backfire on him. He did say that only one of them can be alive, what if his father feels the same way. He killed his mother, he would have no problem killing his son.

The thought that made my blood run cold and tears pooled my eyes. The bell rung and I looked at the empty chair again and sighed, He's not here.

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Lunch came by quickly today and I wanted nothing more to do than eat but I couldn't. My mind was still filled with all the negative what if's my anxiety had to offer. Gina made it to my table with the biggest smile on her face "Hey you." She said and I raised my brow "Where's your boyfriend?" I asked, "He's on his way, How was your morning." She said. I shrugged "It was okay. Mrs. Walker was pretty toned down on the whole Greek mythology topic." I replied in a thankful tone. "Funny because Mr. Linley wouldn't shut up about it, I mean who cares about that stuff?" She said rolling her eyes. "Have you seen Ashton?" Christian blurts as he neared us, My heart started racing again.

"No. Have you?" I asked. He didn't answer my question at first, he just ran his fingers through his blond hair and closed his eyes. "Have you?" I asked, "No I haven't Summer." He said. I stared at him, The table now quiet, This is the first time he's ever said my name. It was always Sums or Summy or even Summybear. I've not once ever heard him say my name. "Do you know where he could be?" I asked. Chris chuckled humorlessly, "Dead." He replied. I went stiff. "I'm sorry am I missing something here?" Regina asked. Christian gave Gina a confused look before realization hit him, "I forgot you don't know. Well here's the bullshit." He said and gave her a rundown on everything that I knew of. The whole Cupid is Ash's father and the whole get rid of Mr. Cupid.

I tried to zone it out but some of the words he said didn't help at all.

He might be dead.

He's fighting a literal God and he's only a demigod.

His temper will get the best of him.

He's emotions will be the reason why he dies.

All of that echoed within my mind. If bounced off the wall of my brains and all I could do is sit there in shock. What if Ashton really is dead. I never got the chance to tell him that I like him ... that I like him a lot. The last thing I have to remember him is by is the toy I bought myself. I gave it a meaning as my feelings for him grew. How am I suppose to carry on knowing that he's dead? "It's a possibility though. Who knows he might just waltz into the cafeteria like nothing happened." Chris said looking at the door. I looked at the door waiting for it to open and for Ashton to come walking towards us with that stupid little smirk of his but it didn't happen.

The door became blurry and I was now aware that I was tearing up, it was hard to swallow and to breathe. "He's fine. Don't worry." Gina cooed next to me.

He's fine. I repeated to myself. Trying to make myself believe it, But I couldn't. Cupid's a literal God. Ashton doesn't stand a chance.