Suicide note (Frerard)

"I will be with you soon my sweetheart"

I don't know why I am writing this. You won't see it. Maybe no one will. You were the only person I had and now you are gone. You left me all alone. I know you told me to always carry on if you left and I know you didn't leave me on purpose. But I can't do it Gerard. I can't carry on in this world without you. do you remember the last thing you said to me Gerard? You told me that you would see me tomorrow. But you lied. I would never see you again. This isn't fair. This isn't the way it was supposed to be. We were finally happy and everything was perfect. If you had just got in that car a few minutes later then you would still be here with me now. We would be sitting on the couch watching films and I would be holding you in my arms. God I wish I could hold you right now. To smell your scent, to feel your hair brush against my skin, to listen to your heartbeat. I would give anything to get it all back. I'm sorry for giving up baby. I tried to be strong for you. The day of your funeral was the worst day of my life. I cried for hours after and still haven't gone a day since without shedding a tear. Even now, tears are falling onto this note and letting the ink bleed out onto the page. I can no longer concentrate. I can feel myself falling, sleeping. I will be with you soon my sweetheart. We will be together once more. I used to believe that when you died, that was it. It was all over. But I can no longer think that. No one would be so cruel as to keep me from you for all of eternity. I will see you again. I must.
I love you will all my heart, now and forever.
Frank

His heart was pounding and his throat was burning. His eyes started to flicker close and eventually rolled back into his head. He collapsed onto the floor. Unable to speak or move. He couldn't breath. He was gone.