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Time was made for the forbidden, and forever was made for you and I. What are boundaries, what is no, when I have you...had. Meeting you was my destiny alone, because discovering happiness is as discovering a new species. It's just not something you stumble upon, you work for it, search for it, something physically, mentally, and emotionally starved for. And I found that in you. Did you find it in me too? My mother told me once when I was a little girl, that love is the strongest bond between two human beings. That no place, time, situation, disagreement, or any obstacle, can break apart. Well you're not here, physically. I can't see your smile anymore, or the simple, yet beautiful dent in your cheeks when you laugh. Or to hear the sound of your voice when you spoke softly to me as I fell asleep. What is love, when you've lost it? It isn't like a teddy bear you lose in the grocer, or a toy you've lost under your bed. It isn't something, someone can help you find. It's heartbreaking, something that could possibly obliterate your mind. It eats away at you, for it is truly a relentless pain that never ceases. No matter how many times you ask, you scream, you beg of it to just let you alone. Losing you was traumatizing. And I still feel it in my bones when I wake up in the middle of the night, hoping it'd be you. Splashing water on your face because you had a bad dream. And every time I open my eyes I wish it was of the pestering imagery you awoken from all of those times. Time has forced all of what I knew I had with you, to haunt me miserably like a bad dream. Because I know no matter how many times I wish, and I hope, and I search for a way to see you again, that it will not come true. Like all of those pointless make a wish moments at my younger birthday parties. I really thought that one day I might own my own plane, to fly across the world and meet new people, see new things. To discover life. But I discovered life, when I met you. Which is why, now that you're gone. It isn't the same. I need you.
