bad thoughts › bbno$ [1]

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(I feel weird calling him Alex bcuz my brother's name is Alex.. so Ima just refer to his name as bbno$)

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Carter;

me and Vicki got into HER car, which can ONLY mean one thing. I might die going to see my favorite person, because she is terrible at driving

"you finna kill me before I even see him." she gave me a confused look

"because your bad at driving." I mumbled knowing she'd get mad at me BUT THATS A-OK

"why, I might purposely just crash this shit." she gave me an attitude

"hey don't ruin my special day by killing me!!" I crossed my arms and pouted like a little baby

"yeah ok youll be pouting tonight with bbno$." I was very surprised at what she said but I didn't say anything back

"you didn't deny it!" Vicki said with excitement. I just shook my head and turned on the radio

"would you look at thAt, your boyfriend is on the radio." Vicki said referring to bbno$

"shut up he's not my boyfriend!" I yelled back at her

"uh, yeah you are.. kinda."

"he doesn't even know who I am, like you said he'll just see me as one of his fans." I rested my head in my hand peering out the window.

"yeah we'll see tonight." she smirked as she pulled into the parking lot of where he was preforming, it was a large cafe and i really didn't think his music suited this place but it's whatever..

me and Vicki walked into the cafe and there tons of people here, and plus the cafe wasn't small either

"I guess he won't even be able to see me now." I looked over to Vicki who was trying to get some drinks, fucking dumbass.

Vicki had came back and she grabbed my hand "I'm going to make sure he sees you." she pulled me to the front

there were gates making sure people wouldn't be able to get on the stage

"see now he'll be able to see your beautiful face." vicki said slurring her words

"ok then."

"oh and btw remember how I said these tickets were special..?"

"yes.." I replied

"well they get us into the after party with him." my body went numb after she said that

"wait what I'm not ready to meet him." I starting playing with my fingers I'm actually going to meet for like the first time.. OMNMnVFAf

I low-key started to have a panic attack. SMH

I be having panic attacks on the regular