Waves

🐚four🐚

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*trigger warning *
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It was now the 28th, we had our Chicago pop up yesterday and we had yet another free day. Things were better between Jonah and I. We were currently cuddling and watching mission impossible on the hotel tv. Suddenly I felt his finger making circles on my thigh. I blush, glancing at him but he was invested in the movie, his eyes trained on the tv. I couldn't help the way my body was reacting. I was trying to calm my breathing but it wasn't working. Jonah must have noticed because he glances at me with furrowed brows.

"You okay?" His finger stops as he looks at me in worry. Instead of responding I find myself straddling his hips, my lips on his. He hesitates before placing his hands on my hips and kissing me back. He slowly pulls away, looking at me in surprise.

"What was that for bub?" I blush, glancing at his hand.

"You're hand was doing stuff on my thigh. Making me horny." I whine, kissing his neck. He sucks in a breath, his eyes closing as I trail my lips up to his ear.

"I want to.. you know." He gulps, slowly looking at me.

"Are you sure? We can wait I don't mind." He breathes, leaning his head for more access.

"Positive." I mumble against his skin. Within seconds his hands tighten their grip on my hips as he brings his lips to mine.

Both of us were in our boxers already, seeing as we like to cuddle that way. It feels more intimate. He pulls away to breathe, glancing at me.

"How do you wanna do this?" He pants. I blush, looking at him.

"I- I don't really know how to have sex." I admit, blushing harder. He blinks before looking at my lap.

"Um okay I'll take the lead then." He quickly flips us over and it's only then that I see the bulge in his boxers.

He places his lips on mine, rutting his hips against mine. I pull away as a breathy whimper leaves my lips. He takes that time to slowly kiss down my neck, his hips not stopping.

Soon we were both in panting, my body half on his as we come down from our highs. He smiles, glancing at me.

"So?" I roll my eyes, looking up at the roof.

"Fine sex is not as bad as I made it out to be." I giggle. He chuckles, placing a kiss on my head.

"Can't believe you almost threw a fit over the condom." I smack his chest causing him to laugh once again.

"I'm not trying to get pregnant Marais." His laugh quiets down as he looks at me.

"I mean, would it be such a bad thing?" He shrugs. My face falls.

"Jonah-"

"No hear me out. Would it really be that bad to have a baby? I mean, we both are fairly wealthy so there won't be a struggle and you, well you'll be glowing. I'd love to see you swollen and pregnant." He says.

"Jonah I don't want to get pregnant." He sits up abruptly, cause if me to fall onto the bed a little.

"Why? You love Lavender and you always look at Daniel like you wish you were pregnant. So why do you keep lying to yourself?" He snaps.

"Jonah-"

"No you know what I'm done. What we did was a mistake." He quickly gets up, getting dressed and leaving the room, making sure to slam the door. My lip begins to tremble as I shakily bring the blanket to cover myself.

Mistake. I gave myself to him regardless of how scared I was and he said it was a mistake.  I can't help the tears that fall down my cheeks as I slip on some boxers and one of his shirts before going into the bathroom.