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him

I walked beside Jamie in the halls casually looking around for Him.

him.

It was My 'crush' it's stupid and my fucking heart is stupid stupid stupid. like sometimes i just wanna throw it away and get a new one.

but anyways the crush...it was all based on looks because I always tried to text him and he'd just leave me on open. Plus he likes this one girl named Chloe. I always wondered why. It's not like I care that much but What the fuck~

Was it because I was boring?
Was it because I'm weird?
Was it because I'm ugly?
Was I not THicK enough?!
NAh it's probs Bc I don't offer sex to random guys....

Yeahhhhh that's it. see i'm so smart

BUT MY DUMB STUPID ASS Heart DOESNT SEEM TO CARE NOW DOES IT!

the list goes on really, and it wasn't good for my self esteem.

I groaed swinging my ID in my hand walking besides my bestfriend JAMIE she do be a queen though

"OHHHH Gianna I think we have a new student today, he was homeschoolEd, so he must be rich rich" Jamie squealed and then stoped

I wheezed.

"Girl I'm no stripper....but if he's cute I'll think about it" I laughed making her wheezed

"oh there's bae" as in bae it was Max.

Maxxxxxxie boyyyyy was the heartthrob of the school who happened to catch mines too.

Yeah I know what your thinking. Fuck

BUT ITS NOT MY FAULT He was my type! it's the guy i was talking about earlier ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

He had brown hair and it was the perfect length and wavy. Plussss he had brown eyes and it lured the girls and sadly me on.

As he looked at me.

WAIT HE LOOKED AT ME!

Wait... he doesn't care about you I recalled to myself and sighed fuck my stupid self AHHHHH

"Yeah well no hope ,no chance I WONT SAY I'm in love" I  sang sadly the smile i originally had on my face was now gone as I dragged myself to the bath room. It was lunch and Me and Jamie have yet to make it there.

I glared at my reflection as she used the restroom unlike me.

Dnag No wonder why he doesn't like me. I'm a basic ass white girl. I punch the mirror and pretended I was punching my face in aggression but it sadly...didn't work.

  my thoughts echoed threw the bathroom. I had long wavy dark brown hair , brown eyes , 5'5, and needless to say I was nothing special. Well I mean not to brag but like I was kinda swaggy :0

Sure people said I was pretty! But those were the desperate hoes...or maybe it's BECUASE I downloaded a dating app that wasn't titled a dating app. Fuck I don't even know.

"Gianna, come on Jocy , Donella, and Anna are probably waiting" she smiled making me laugh "Ight bet "

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I opened the doors and my ears now rung with all the chatter of the kids in he lunch room. Loud ass hoes.

Making it to ours table I noticed something different.

At the "popular guy table " there was more boys. And that's not normal.

I looked around the table seeing one new one that caught my eyes, and so did his. He had longishDirty blond / brown hair and brown eyes that shined , and a slit in his eye brow. He wore a red hoodie that said champion over and over again, and black jeans , with red Jordan's. I blushed and quickly looked away as he did to.

"COdE REd!" I dived down to the table hugging it sightly as all of my friends looked at me and giggled. "What now ,you see another cute guy that your gonna get played by again?" Jocy giggled making me huff

. "Well no , and YES  . BUT ANYWAY. That new student everyone keeps talking about yeah?" I looked at Donella as she gestured to continue. "I thInK I fEeL In LovE" I gawked looked slightly at his direction to see now the table of guys one by one looked back at me. "

OMG Gianna! Dude why is that whole table now looking at you. WHAT DID YOU DO" Anna growled hiding her face and making sure her outfit was in check.

"I don't knowwwww I just made eye contact with the new hot ass fucking new guy!" I sighed as Jocy's eyes widened. "

Oh shit what if Giannas gonna actually get a manzzzz" she laughed making me roll my eyes.

"Oh hush" I sighed looking to see if the snack bar was opened and sure enough it was.

"Jamieeee comeee onnn I cant be able to use school time to starve myself unless I get one thing in my stomach so I don't throw up! " I cried tugging her on as she got up and followed me to the snack bar line.

I pulled out my ID with my money and looked over at the table of guys to my surprise the new guy was laughing as one of the guys kept shoving him to where the line was.

I didn't want to be caught starring so I looked away and Jamie started slapping my arm repeatedly. "GiaNnA, Gianna, gaianna, Gianna he's coming over hereeeee" she squealed. I freaked out and started panicking my heart beating fast.

I then looked up to seeing

Yonkers You guessed it , it was the school janitor ....

Nah I'm just playin it was The new guy.

I blushed and looked at him as he had a goofy grin on his face. "Uhhh how do I use this" he said swinging around his id.

"I- you- um go up there if there's money on your account and get anything you want I guess" I said playing it cool but I tried to make sure my face remained it's fair color.

""Oh sorry about that it just that I'm new and-"

I cut him off "I know"

He looked up in surprise and we made extreme eye contact.

can i maybe just jump into a hole and die :D

"Oh uh Gianna I think Anna's calling us come on " Jamie sweat dropped and quickly tugged me leaving the new guy behind as he watched us go.

I hope I didn't make him feel stupid...BUT THE REAL SHIT IS ,WHY THE FUCK DID I STUTTER I TIRED TO LOOK COOL AND I BLEWWW MMMYYYYY COVERRRR!