✔︎ | him her | p.m

Scared

I sat in my hotel room looking out the window.

I sighed as the rain poured.

Looked down at the key necklace and turned it over seeing the words that made my heart throb looking at it.

'𝙁𝙡𝙞𝙧𝙩𝙮 𝙗𝙤𝙮'

I always wondered if he would forgive me. Or even still want to try to be friends with me again.

But I never wanted to know.

All that I could think of was seeing the necklace In his tiktoks and even his youtube. I always kept it on too! And people commented on my tiktoks about  payton still and about the necklace. But I just ignore it not trying to catch Payton's attention.

But he'd also go live and people would still ask questions about even though it's been a year.

I know I said I avoid his accounts but how could I really.

And not even two months ago he posted a whole YouTube video addressing it.

Flashback.

I groaned the feeling of my phone vibrating a hundred times.

I looked at my clock looking at it as it blurred because I was taking a nap. 

8:47pm

I looked at my phone and opened it seeing people tweeting at me on a post payton made.  The same on Instagram and tiktok.

I opened the video and it took me to youtube.

The screen lighted up and Payton stood there now going to his seat.

He wore a white hoodie with the necklace obviously showing and a blue background.

"Well as you probably saw from he title of the video this video is about...." he breathed in and out and put a hand though his hair.

"Well it's to address me and Gianna. Because you guys I feel like need to know as a lot of you were there.. even when I  first met that beautiful girl" he said looking down.

I blushed. I felt bad for leaving him.

"So a lot of you know who she is and some of you don't so I'll introduce you to her" he smiled making me smile.

"I met her about a year ago when I first tried public school. It was a new thing but all of my friends were there so I was fine. But then I met her and it was crazy. She had the most amazing smile bro I swear I would quit everything right now to see her smile right now" he blushed putting his hands over his face shaking his head.

"She had long brown hair and stunning brown eyes, and also short. I don't know if I ever seen anyone like her so she's definitely one of a kind for me. Basically we got really close and went through a bunch of fun times. And I remember this moment  like it was yesterday. We were at the park and I got her and me these necklaces that I'm even am wearing right now and still don't take it off. " he smiled holding the piece  of jewelry and stood up.

"And so I had it engraved and mines says shorty and I always called her that and hers is a key and it says flirty boy!" He laughed showing the camera.

I felt tears fall down remembering the day.

He sat down and laughed looking at the camera.

"Yeah that night I had my first kiss." He said before taking a sharp breath in.

"But what you all wanted to know mostly about is what happened. Well actually I'm not going to go and reveal her family life , but she had to move. Move to Chicago .....yeah that day was tough and I wish I could just rewind everything and go back in time to just tell her that I - I loved her and just so I can fucking have her as mine and maybe this all wouldn't have happened and I still wouldn't be head over heels for her and just move on. But....I can't." He said his eyes glassy.

"So Gianna...if you come across this video...I want you to know ... I love you. A lot. Like a lot and I don't think I can even lie about it anymore. But I hope some day destiny will bring us together and I'll meet you again to tell you this in person. " he said a single tear falling down his face.

My heart cracked and tears poured down my face.

"So I - I hope that cleared things up for you guys and I'll see you guys later bye" he said turning off the camera.

Now

I sighed pulling out my phone seeing it was now 11 pm playlist tomorrow.

I sighed and laid down in bed pulling out my phone going to posts I was tagged in.

I looked and saw an edit with July by Noah Cyrus playing.

I saw payton video when he looked at the camera and sighed tears falling down his face.

"I wish I could just rewind everything and go back in time to just tell her that I - I loved her"

Then it cut to the tiktok of me and him that night he spent the night. I was on his back and we laughed.

Then it cut to another one of when we went to target him holding my hand as I blushed and took my cookie.

Then it finally cut to a video of me.in that video I was just doing a pov and I was crying fake tears but they were actually really because I just had to think of payton.

And then it cut back to the video of payton saying I love you to me then it cut.

I sighed and turned my phone off and rolled over and snuggled into the pillow.

I didn't want to face payton tomorrow I was scared...