Bus Ride || TaeJinKook ☑️

Torn

Seokjin

Crying.

That's all I can do as I turn on the shower. How can I be so stupid? Why I forgot to ask Jungkook to wear a condom and I don't even remember it the whole time.

He took me multiple times last night. My whole body is sore. I almost pull my legs to be able to walk. My hips and ass are aching badly. And everything just sinking to me now. I am perfectly aware of the consequences of this. And I'm not liking it.

Gosh! I will graduate soon. So many opportunities waiting for me. I can finally stop doing this disgusting job. I swallow my dignity for this job so I can graduate then I am on the brink of ending up pregnant.

I punch the tiled wall. I want to hit my head on the wall. Stupid Jin! I'm so stupid! I wish this water can drown me right now. I don't want all my efforts to go to waste just because of my foolishness.

Just like the previous days, I cooked breakfast and lunch for Jungkook and left a handwritten letter on his bedside.

I promised to wake Jungkook up today but I chose to leave while he's still sleeping. I am afraid that he will insist to bring me to school. Fortunately, he only saw Taehyung's back yesterday. He went home from the office earlier than usual when he saw Taehyung pulling me.

If he saw what Taehyung looks like, I'm scared that he will wait for him at Taehyung's condo and confront him. And I don't want that to happen.

I think I should clear everything up with Jungkook tonight. I should remind him again that I still have my personal life and it's different from what we're having right now. I don't know why I have that feeling that he's controlling me. My relationship with him is purely for work. No more, no less.

Just lately, I want to give myself and Taehyung a chance to know each other more. Especially when he introduced me to his mom. But after what happened to me and Jungkook last night, I think I have more reasons now to forget the blooming relationship I have with Tae.

Everything is driving me crazy right now. I am utterly troubled.

With a face mask and a cap that almost hides my eyes, looking down while waiting for the bus, I saw a hand giving me a sandwich. I look beside me and a cute boxy smile greets me. Somehow, his smile takes some of the worries away.

"Good morning!" His voice is full of excitement. It really is a good morning for him. Jimin waves at me. I smiled under the mask.

I get the sandwich from his hand and a bottle of cold coffee. "Good morning." I greeted lazily.

He took a peek under the cap. He wanted to see my eyes. I pull the mask down up to my chin. "Why?" His voice laced with worry.

"What do you mean why?" I know exactly what he meant but I chose to pretend that I'm okay.

"You looked so tired." He said as we ride the bus.

Sitting beside each other, he holds my hand. I looked up at him. I really like this guy sitting beside me. But I am a dirty guy and a precious guy like Taehyung doesn't deserve someone like me.

"Is it your work? Looks like you're overworked from last night. Are you sure you're okay?" He asked while looking at me intently. His thumb rubbing my knuckles.

I just nod. I am so weak to even talk. All I want is to sleep. If I don't have an important exam today, I will go home and hibernate.

"You sleep on my shoulder if you want. I'll wake you up once we're near our school."

I did not think twice. I shift in my seat and lean my head on his shoulder, our hands entwined. A tear fell as I close my eyes. I quickly wipe it so as not to drop on his crisp blue button top.

Taehyung. You're too good for me. But right now, I can only find the comfort that I need in you. Just here beside you.

Thinking about my life, it is an absolute trash. I don't have a mother to guide me as I face this cruel world. My father is in prison and is subject to judgment from people once he's out of that metal bars. And me, a stripper turned whore working as a fuck buddy to be able to finish my college. Who wanted a life like mine?

No one.

Then this precious boy beside me thinks that I am amazing because I am a working student. He thinks that I am so hardworking that I am able to send myself to school. I know I should distance myself from him soon. He doesn't deserve someone like me.

***

I am awakened by the buzzing of my phone inside my pocket. I checked it and there are four unread messages.

Hobi-nim:
Hey Jinnie! Your salary is waiting for you here in the club. Mr. Jeon made an advance payment for one month. Such a lucky guy you are! See you tonight!

Client - Jungkook:
Good morning beautiful! You did not wake me up. Where are you now?

Client - Jungkook:
By the way, thank you for the food. And I know I haven't said this yet, I do find your handwritten letters so sweet and romantic! I love them!

Client - Jungkook:
Beautiful? I hope you arrived safe at school. Message me once you're out. See you tonight!

Tonight? We'll see each other again tonight?

Hi Jungkook. I'm not feeling well today. Can we just meet tomorrow? I think I need some rest. And also I will go and meet Hoseok tonight to get my salary.

After over a minute.

Client - Jungkook:
The more that I need to see you. I will call a massage therapist to give you a massage tonight. I will pick you up at the club at 7 pm. Then I will bring you to the doctor's tomorrow. No more buts, I want to make sure you'll feel better asap. See you tonight.

I hope Jungkook will stop treating me as if I'm his real boyfriend, otherwise, I will end up getting hurt. And he's making everything so difficult and confusing for me. I am just his sex buddy. There's no chance that he will fall in love for me for real. Because I think I'm starting to fall for him.

"Jin?" I jerked in my seat when Taehyung nudged my arm. "Let's go. It's the bus stop."

I followed them down the bus as we walk towards our University.

"Are you busy tonight Jin?" Oh no. Looks like Taehyung wanted us to hang out again.

"I need to go to work at 6:30 pm Tae. I will get my salary." I reasoned out.

"Mmmm... Maybe on Sunday? Sunday is your day off right? If dad is at home, I'll introduce you to dad." Taehyung seems very excited for me to meet his parents. It's very romantic for him to fo that, but I felt guilty because of it.

"Okay. Sunday." But then I agreed. I simply can't stop myself.