This is My Life Now

Chapter 6

The sweat ran down my face as I pushed myself to run farther. I wasn't sure how long I had been running but I was hitting a breaking point. As I came around the corner I slowed down checking my watch. My time had stayed the same. I sighed as my breath puffed out into the cold air and I could see it in front of me. 

I looked at my surroundings and started walking back to my apartment. I re-tied my hair as I walked checking the time again. I had two hours until my meeting and I still needed to shower. As I got closer to my apartment I pulled out my keys looking around. It wasn't the brightest idea running out in the open as a not only Shield convict but also wanted by United Nations. I opened the front door and scanned the room and everything looked in place.

After taking a shower I dried my now brown hair that I had dyed to not stand out as much. Though I knew I probably wasn't at the top of the list of people that the United Nations would be looking for. I was probably third or fourth. I pinned the top half of my hair back out of my face and threw on some jeans and a hoodie before grabbing some sunglasses to conceal my identity for the most part. I just had to make sure that I made it to the train station in time. There was a car out back that I had commandeered to use and changed the license plate every time I went out in case Shield was following me. 

The car started after a few moments and I was on my way to the train station. I weaved my way in and out of traffic trying to get there in time so the person I was meeting with wouldn't leave. There were a few open spots in the parking lot and turned into one of them securing my hood and glasses before heading into the building. The clock read that I had three minutes so I sat at a bench with a few scattered people throughout the room. 

The person beside me was reading a magazine that had Tony Stark on the cover of it talking of the new Avengers initiative along with what the accords entitled. The clock rang at the hour and I looked around waiting to see a familiar face.

"Looking for someone?" The girl beside me asked. Her voice sounded familiar.

"Viv?" I asked under my breath sitting back glancing at her and realizing she had one of the disguise masks on and that she had short black hair.

"The one and only," she smiled, "Kinda ballsy out here without one of these," she tapped her face.

"Yeah, not all of us can get the luxuries of Shield while also being in the top five of their wanted list," I laughed quietly.

"Here," she slid the duffel bag at her feet closer to me so I could grab it when when I left.

"So who have you heard from?" I asked lowly.

"Wanda and Vision are in Paris somewhere. Nat wouldn't tell me exactly. I'm not sure if she trusts me or if it's because she's afraid if Shield finds out that I'm talking to you guys that they'll try to get from me your whereabouts," she answered turning the pages of the magazine as if she were reading them.

"It's been over a year you'd think they'd let it go," I scoffed.

"Yeah, I don't think it will be that easy," Vivian laughed, "Thor and Banner are still MIA."

"They're probably just as into it as we are," I said shaking my head watching everyone pass us on their way with their lives. Definitely not as difficult as ours. I sighed dreading the one question I was about to ask, "And what about..." I didn't even need to finish the question. The pause and the shake in my voice was enough for her to know what I was talking about.

"I haven't heard from Steve at all. I think Nat has been in contact with him but she won't talk about him at all when we meet up," she answered.

I put my head in my hands and sighed softly but kept my eyes from tearing up.

"I'm sure he'll reach out to you when he can," Vivian answered putting her hand on mine for a second before taking it away.

"Yeah, I guess," I said sitting back up biting my thumbnail, "Nat is most definitely with him. I don't know why he hasn't..." I stopped myself from finishing the sentence. "Does Nat know you're talking to me?"

"I said I had talked to you a bit but not often. All I know is she's coming from somewhere else whenever we meet. Wherever we meet it's most definitely not where she is staying," she answered, "I should probably go soon. I'm meeting with Sharon today too."

"Alright, sounds good," I nodded.

"Are you doing okay, Addie?" She asked solemnly.

I shrugged, "I'm just getting through each day."

"When do you want to meet again?" Vivian asked.

"Here," I wrote down my address on a piece of paper leaving it on the seat as I got up and grabbed the duffel, "Have a good one, Viv."

I rushed out of the train station just wanting to go back home. Once I was in the car I threw the duffel to the side and headed back home before shuffling through it in my kitchen. In it was an envelope of cash which I could use for groceries and rent though the place I was staying in was a tiny studio apartment and in a terrible area of Norwich, England. I had moved here after I finally got out the of the containment center. That was the last time I had heard from Steve if you would even call it that. One morning I woke up to find my straight jacket on the bed beside me and all the cells where the rest of team had be were now empty. I found a note beside my pillow.

Adeline,

I'm sorry that it has to be like this but after the events of the past week I'm afraid that I put you in too much danger and that anything after this won't be any better. You deserve the best life you can have. You have so much potential and I know you're going to do so many great things. If you were with me I would hold you back and I don't want to do that to you anymore. The security all have been given sleeping pills and you should be able to make it out just fine. You can start over now and become the best that I know you can. I wish there were another way and I wish we could be together but I just couldn't do that to you. I love you so much.

Steve

So Steve had left me to fend for myself. I got out and moved here though I didn't feel as if I were living to my full potential as Steve had said. I couldn't do that while without exposing myself. I knew he did it out of love and I would have done the exact same thing if I were in his position I just wished we could have talked it out together instead of him leaving. Everyday here was so lonely without him and the only person I talked to was Vivian when she visited.

So I did what I always did or what seemed to be the common occurrence currently was turn to alcohol and sat and watched documentaries on tv. I poured myself a glass of wine but brought the bottle with me to the couch and turned on the tv. Though tonight it was harder to concentrate. I thought of how Vivian had said that Wanda and Vision were together and I became jealous. I wanted to be with Steve. The first few months on my own I tried to better myself like he had said I could but I couldn't. But it has now been almost 2 years and all I wanted to do was be with him. I wanted to fight the bad guys by his side and I wanted to be able to grow old with him and tell our stories to our grandchildren.

My vision became blurry from both tears and the alcohol when I heard a scratch at the window. I jumped up fast ready for someone to come in but nothing happened. Slowly, I walked over to the window and found a tree branch poking at the window and sighed. "You need to go to bed," I said to myself.

The next morning I did my normal routine and went on a run before going to the grocery store. As I walked down the aisle I grabbed what I needed without stopping trying to make this trip as quick as possible. Once at the checkout aisle I loaded the bagged groceries back into my cart and noticed a quick blur near the door. Someone had walked in with their head down. I looked around and saw someone turn their head quickly when I looked. I needed to get out fast.