Internet Girlfriend || josh Richards

20. your fans are crazy

"josh?" I say, I'm in the kitchen and I hear fumbling around in my living room. I walk slowly to the knife draw, getting out a long one. my breath is heavy and fast I speak out again.
"j-josh please this isn't funny"
it's all quiet until I hear a knock on the wall behind me. I slowly turn around with my eyes screwed shut.
"if you came to kill me, get it over and done with."
" I haven't come to kill you, y/n"
I open my eyes and there she stands in my kitchen. Elanor.

I'm shocked I almost drop the knife on my foot.
"how do you know where I live?" I ask placing the knife on the counter.
"josh brought me here, he's in the car waiting for me, we are going in a date." my heart shatters at her words.
"w-wait a minute, your going on a date, with HIM??!?"
"yeah so, I know your little crush on him, I think it's cute but he's mine now, so back off"

what the hell was she talking about, her and josh. but josh told me-

"josh is mine, not yours, so back away and stop trying to flirt with him the way I see you. I see you everyday with him at lunch, sitting with his friends. trying to get along with them. but face it, you'll never be as good as me" she says before storming out of my house and slamming the door. my breath hitches as she does. I feel my throat close up, and the tears welling in my eyes. I slide down the wall and pull my hair screaming cause I can't think of anything else to do. I knew this shit would happen at one point. like I said, joshs' fans will do anything to split us up. physically, emotionally, mentally, anything.

I just sit there screaming and crying for hours. at some point I moved up to my room. josh has called and texted me many, many times.

I didn't want to believe what Elanor said but she made it sound so real, the way she mocked me and the way she mimicked me. she had died her hair code to my color, then pierced her nose putting in a size 5 diamond stud, wearing and shopping at the places I do. she's trying to be me...but for what you may ask?

to get with josh, why else.

it's been 4 hours and now I'm sitting on my bed with my airport in blasting all time low. I didn't know if I wanted to keep crying, if I wanted to scream more, sleep, or go to joshs' house beat the loving shut out of him, or just talk-talk to him??

I got in my car and rushed to his house and once I got out I stormed in his house without knocking. he was sitting on the couch his parents weren't home bc no other car was outside.

"what was she talking about, how could you leave me for her, she's trying so hard to be like me and your to blind to see it. all she wants is to get laid with you josh. you've told me a million times that you don't think of her like that. And that you'll never leave me. damnit josh, you know everything about my history my very, very fucked up history, we both used to tell each other verything, I trusted you-" I didn't realize I was crying or yelling again until he stoop up covering my mouth looking me dead-ass.

"What?!!?" he said holding his hand over my mouth so i would stop yelling.
"how could you leave me for elanor"
he chuckled looking at my tear stained cheeks.
"I haven't talked to her in a week only because she tried to kiss me, tried telling me that I didn't need you and that she could make me feel better than you could ever. I was just her math tutor and she thought I was flirting with her while I was attempting to teach her what the square root of 81 was. "
he slowly released his hand from my face holding my face in his hand and wiping away the more and more tears from from my eyes.
"now, talk to me, what do you mean, 'what was she talking about'?"
I tried to contain my breath but soft hiccups would escape my lips every now and then.
"she came to my house saying that you where in the car waiting for her, that you two where on a date. she said that she knows about my 'little crush' on you, then she continued with "if I ever see you two hanging out the way I see you with him, I will end you'' "
tears started to fall down my cheeks at the thought of him leaving me. I look down but my eyes meet his as he lifted my chin with his index finger.

my eyes where blood shot, my face was pale, my nose hurt, and I could barely breath. he cupped my cheeks and pressed his lips against mine very gently, the kiss had the same feeling and all the passion that it had when we had our first kiss.

"baby I will never, ever leave you, no matter what any girl says, if a girl wants to break us up, they can think that, but my heart will always be in your hands, its been there from the beginning." he took my hands in his gently. "the first time we met, you had my heart, you could have done anything you wanted with it, but you decided to keep it, you kept it you didn't harm it." god damnit the tears are coming back. "I love you, y/n, I will never stop"
"I love you too josh" he kissed me again.

after we left, we went to his house and just cuddled watching Netflix for the rest of the day.