Internet Girlfriend || josh Richards

14. I love you, I'm sorry

"Dear diary, I thought he loved I truly did. He knew how insecure I had always been and he does something like that. I hope his little twisted mind gets what he deserves. He deserves to be pounded with all the heartbreak in the world so he knows what it's like to feel the way I did that night. Paisley wad my best friend and then I told her about Josh and how I had strong feelings for him. She started following and adding him on everything, finally when him and I met paisley was in her room. She's my neighbor so she sees almost everything that happens in my yard. So she saw him. I knew she was liking him but then him and I started dating and things got hectic. She would find a way to hang out with me or talk to joshs' friend to make him ditch cause 'Saturdays are for the boys'
I was so sad but I always hid it from him. The night I saw him and paisley together I couldn't take it anymore I wanted to scream and cry and punch and kick and rip his di-"
I'm rudely interrupted when I hear the doorbell ring I put my book and pen down and answer it. There stands Joshua Richards, eyes as red as if had been crying no sleep, hair messed up so bad that he had been pulling it out so much. I hated to him like this.
"Aww baby I hate to see you like this" I said to him smoothly, and with that I shut door in his face and got my stuff running up to my room. He opens the door following me after. "Please Y/N let me explain" I turn around on my heals.
"Fine, an hour and if I don't forgive you bye then, you're  out of my house."
He had a soft smile on his face. Ya know the one where he's barely smirking but he has his dork smile. The one that makes me melt for him everything he does it and bites his lip after looking at me through his big soft eyelas- stop...
He looks at me, I could see the hurt in his eyes like he really didn't mean anything that happened but I wanted an explanation.
" you and paisley where wearing the same type of outfit I could've sworn I was making out with you, we didn't go anywhere besides kissing and it was only for a while it didn't get heated at all. She kissed me, my vision was blurt from all the alcohol and smoke going around. She even mocked the way you touched me, I mean- running her fingers through my hair the same way you would, tilting her head the exact same way you do"

My heart started to drop as I realized he was right all along, but I didn't say anything I wanted him to keep explaining.
He breathed softly before looking up at me, he looked like he was about to scream.
"If I didn't know it was you I never would have done it, I never wanted to kiss her, I hate her, she tries to take away the only piece of my life I actually enjoy. She didn't want me to be happy with you she wanted me to be happy with her. But it couldn't be possible because I love you"
I was probably on the verge of tears, he never really said that much of how he loves me.
My led lights in my room where constantly switching from vibrant to dull colors every so often, so I put them on blue without him noticing.
" y/N I don't ever want to loose you, you're my rock, the light of my life, my soulmate, I could never see myself living without you" I smile letting out a soft sob with a little tear trickling down my cheek I look up at him and he wipes it away with his thumb holding my face in his hands.
"I love you too josh" I smile
" please, please forgive me, I promise I'll never do anything to hurt you ever again" I smile and a timer goes off on my phone, I smirk.
"Your hours up and I haven't forgave you get out of my house"I say trying not to laugh.
"Wh-what no please y/N i-I pleas-"
"I'm kidding calm down, of course I'll forgive you" I give him a small kiss and hug him around the neck and he holds me tightly, laughing on my neck, it kinda tickled a little not 'gonna lie. We pull apart from each other and we just stand there for a while enjoying each other presents.
"Will you be mine, again?"
"Of course I will, baby"
He kisses me smiling in between kisses and hugs me again.
We end up cuddling and watching TV while ordering food for the rest of the day.
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