I'm so scared because of those sleepless nights.
I'm scared of going through that pain again.
And I'm scarred because of them.
It was during the time I started to lose faith.
Faith in us.
I was brainwashing my mind by telling myself horrible things.
Telling it to stop working the way it does.
Trying to trick it by altering memories of you.
Can you believe I actually made myself hate you ?
When in fact you were all I ever wanted ?
As days went on I started to focus on your bad habits.
The things you did that I objectively didn't like.
The way I started noticing them more.
It was right after the brainwashing I had made myself endure.
"I don't like it when they act childishly like that" "Are they trying to make me jealous..?"
"Why are they telling me that ?" "Do they know that they hurt me ?" "I can't bare that damn voice anymore"
These were some of the things I told myself while they talked.
I kept trying to find flaws to reverse the effect of l*ve.
I made them seem toxic.
To myself.
Distancing myself
More and more.
YOU ARE READING
Unrequited.
RomanceI'm sorry, I fell in too deep. It was all so bright, I should've known it was too beautiful to be real. It's over now though, you don't have to worry about me anymore. To the one and only person I fell in love with.
