I spent so much time thinking about you
It doesn't stop
It keeps coming back
I can't get you out of my head
You were the only one that I wanted most in my life
I kept daydreaming about it
It wasn't healthy
It wasn't unhealthy
Until it became obsessive
I hate that I still think about you in a way that I shouldn't anymore.
I'm sorry
It's just that my brain keeps betraying me
I tried to get over it for so long...
I know that deep down you are still so important to me and that I keep hoping for what's impossible.
This is beyond unrequited.
Impossibly hurtful.
I feel so helpless.
It's ridiculous.
I hate myself for that.
You are no one to blame
I will only blame you for being beautiful, smart and incredible.
I want to thank you for being my first love ; my first whirlwind of emotions
You sure played a big part in the validation of my sexual identity...
I don't think I can ever deny what I felt at that time cause looking back at it now it's so vivid still. I won't deny either that I'm ready to fall right back in love with you. If you confessed to me today I'd drop everything for you. I've learned that you can't ever stop loving someone when it comes to unrequited love, because you didn't ever get a chance to unite, consequently an empty space in your heart remains.
YOU ARE READING
Unrequited.
RomanceI'm sorry, I fell in too deep. It was all so bright, I should've known it was too beautiful to be real. It's over now though, you don't have to worry about me anymore. To the one and only person I fell in love with.
