HE'S THE ONE

Chapter 5 - Pinky swear

[ Gabriel's POV ]

" weee! talaga? saan tayo pupunta? " excited na tanong ni canton. 

"You'll soon find out" nakangiti parin ako habang tinitignan ang reaksyon niya mula sa taas.

"okay. Magbibihis lang ako" binaba niya ang cellphone at dali-daling umalis mula sa bintana.

Excited ba siya? Ako rin naman noh. :) First time ko siyang yayaing lumabas. Palaging sa bahay lang kase kami nagsasama. Nakakasawa na. Besides, I want to have time with her ALONE. Walang mommy na nangunguha ng stolen shots namin ni canton at nilalagay sa scrapbook, walang daddy na palaging nagtatanong if ano na ang status naming dalawa, at walang younger brother na palaging umaaligid kay canton at nagtatanong kung pwede ba niya itong pakasalan.

My family is weird right? They really like canton. Well, I can't blame them. She's one of a kind. One of the most beautiful flowers I've ever seen. She's caring, loving, and my everything. Ooopps! Haha, nadulas ako dun ah. Yeah, She's MY EVERYTHING.

I love her from the moment she smiled at me when we were five, from the moment she held my hand and asked me to play with her and from the moment she told me to do pinky swear and promise to be her bestfriend forever. That's the reason kung bakit I never admitted na mahal ko siya. I promised to be her BESTFRIEND FOREVER. It might not be a big deal for you but for me it is.

Marami kasing mga bagay na mangyayari when you're in a relationship base on my experiences. Yes, I've involved myself with relationships. Inisip kong if I'll focus my heart to other women, I'll forget my feelings for her. But unfortunately, I failed. Walang nagbago. She is still the woman I want to have, the woman I want to exchange vows with on the altar. Ah, this is so gay. >.<

Sa mga past relationships ko, we all ended nothing. Parang walang nangyari at parang hindi lang kami magkakilala. Kaya nga ayokong ipursue ang pagmamahal ko for canton dahil baka magkaproblema at masaktan ko siya. I believe na kahit gaano mo kamahal ang isang tao, makakagawa ka parin ng mga pagkakamali. Mga pagkakamaling may strengthen or destroy the both of you. I will never take the risks. I don't wanna see her crying because of me. I don't wanna loose her. I'm afraid na baka walang matira sa amin kahit  ang pinagkaiingatan kong friendship. I'm afraid I'll become a stranger to her. Kaya I've decided to stick with my role. To be her bestfriend.

Nung sinabi niyang mahal nya ako, I don't understand what I felt. Masaya ako dahil the feeling is mutual, nanghihinayang ako dahil hindi lalago at magblobloom ang feelings naming for each other into something beautiful at natatakot ako baka masira ko ang aking pangako.

To escape from this bullshit feeling, niligawan ko ang isang babae. Alangan naman lalaki diba? Haha, nakakahawa talaga tong si canton. Anyway, she's Meycee. I know I'm a bastard for courting an innocent girl to hide what I feel for another girl but ito nalang ang alam kong paraan. I don't have any other options. 

She's beautiful and nice. Hindi nga ako makapaniwalang magwowork out ito. I started to like her and have a wonderful time with her. I'm happy I met her. She gave me happiness and love. In fact, hindi  ko na masyadong napapansin ang feelings ko for canton because of her. She's a great woman. :)

Umabot kami ng 6 months. Masayang masaya talaga ako dahil nagtagal kami. Mostly,1 month or weeks lang ang tinatagal ko sa isang relasyon. Naisip ko ngang maybe she's the one for me... Pero nasira lahat ng mga magagandang bagay sa isip ko nung nakipaghiwalay siya sa akin.

She left me for another guy. Sh*t! What a slap on my face! I did everything to maintain our relationship tapos ipagpapalit lang niya ako? Is she playing? Saan ba ako nagkulang? Karma  ba ito for hurting other women?  Inaamin ko, nasaktan ako sa ginawa niya. I really thought we could be perfect for each other. We could be happy. We could enjoy and love life. Pero hindi eh. Mali na naman ako! This life sucks! Kailan ba talaga ako magiging masaya? Tsskkk.