"Mumma ek second please"
She was hysterical I know she is attached to Kiara alot, I closed the door because I didn't want anyone, especially him to see my vulnerable side.
"I can't believe this, seriously you have actually done this, you have given your daughter away!"
To her father, it's not like I've given her up for adoption to some strangers. Mumma went on and I just listened to her say, how selfish, careless, uncaring of a person I am, who only thinks of her self and this decision I will regret one day. Then it went on too how much she loves Kiara only, I just wanted to leave the room. Mumma only cares for Kiara I can't remember the last time she was this caring to me her own daughter!
"But you can stop this I will talk to Kartik" she said.
"Mumma please!, i can't!" I said
"It's ok I will talk to him and explain that_" she said
"I don't want you to!" I yelled
The look on her face like what the hell is going on with me!
"she reminds me of Kartik everyday" I said
"What?" She asked me.
" Haan mumma, I still love him, no matter how hard I try I just can't get him out of my mind"
I cried it wasn't intentional but now I couldn't control it. Mumma hugged me and I needed her I hugged her tightly.
"mujhe Kartik chaiye mumma"
she cried hugging her mumma
"Bas beta calm down..since when have you been feeling this way?" She asked me.
"It can't be that bad maybe we can come up with joint custody I will call Suvarna and..
"Ok fine sure, do what you want you don't listen to me anyways! I said
"When have I not" she said
Like is she seriously asking me this!
"I told you how much I loved Kartik this was after I was expecting her, you told me to get over it, that it will take time, and I told you I can't have this baby, you said I have to because it's not the baby's fault. You knew how much i needed to forget him. You put your best friends needs ahead of mine, you kept in touch with the Goenka's knowing I got pregnant by their family's son, and why all because you didn't want to end your friendship with Suvarna aunty. Near the end of my pregnancy I couldn't take hearing about him in America getting on with his life, I cried my self to sleep that he has moved on.
Her mumma was silent processing everything.
"And" she wiped her cheek
"i heard you on the phone that night so casually you said that's good for Kartik, bacche ke ek mistake can't become a jail sentence for them?
" Naira, beta mein..
She touched my arm, but I was so angry and upset I didn't let her touch me, I flinched moving back.
"Knowing I'm carrying his child inside me, how could you say that?! All so you can impress Survana aunty, so please tell me when have you listened to me?"
She was quiet probably can't find the words to say because she knows I'm right!
"But mumma Kiara is my child, here only I have the power and you have to listen to me fo once..please!"
