Terrible Beautiful Romance

3} Thoughts

Raphael was content. He and Simon had created a contract the night before, and now the small omega was his to care for. He enjoyed the thought greatly of taking care of the small boy. It was soon becoming a concern of his that the omega made his heart happy, it was something that not many things could do. But Simon was able to do it just by smiling, or calling for him.

Simon was sitting on his couch, eating some popcorn and watching some show about demons and things called Shadowhunters, Raphael could tell that he wasn't up to date on American television, when his little sister was over she just watched telanovelas and he'd sit with her because it made his sister happy. Raphael wasn't sure if he liked the show much, it was like nothing he was used to. It was just like Simon in a way, different but not bad. But Simon was very happy with watching it, commenting on the characters and plot, as the hyperactive sub couldn't keep his mouth shut unless he was sleeping, but Raphael found that strangely... endearing? And since Simon was happy, Raphael didn't really mind.

Feelings were not Raphael's strong suit. Being a leader, handling weapons and taking lives were his best talents. Feelings weren't on that list, they only contradict what he has to do in his role. But as soon as he met the sweet omega he had felt something, and continued to feel things as he spent more time with the omega.

Feeling weren't something he was fond of. His sister always told him that they were good things, but he had seen the ways that she ended up when she gave people her feelings and those people gave them back broken.

So of course he gave those people back to their families in black bags, broken like they'd done his sister.

Before Simon, his sister was the only being that saw his feelings. Even Alec, his longtime associate, didn't see his feelings. He kept his feelings to himself, and sometimes his sister. But that all flew out the window when he met Simon.

"Papi, come sit with me please!" Simon exclaimed. Raphael moved from his place at the table, adjacent to where Simon was, and sat on the couch. The omega instantly crawled in his lap and got comfortable in his embrace.

And that was another thing that made him feel. That name, that name Simon had called him in the club, even before the contract. It wouldve been erotic, if he felt erotic emotions. The way it rolled off Simon's tongue so effortlessly, the way it gave him a hot sense of power, was inexplicably the best feeling for him.

Most would consider Simon an erotic sight. Slightly tanned skin, brown doe eyes, pink lips and chocolate colored hair; Simon is gorgeous. Raphael knew that. But he didn't feel attraction that way, things didn't give him sexual pleasure. The thought of sexual pleasure wasn't one he could imagine for himself.

Raphael ran his fingers through Simon's hair, his eyes falling closed as he rested. It wasn't many times he was able to do so, and definitely not with a sub that he wanted. With subs it was usually just a scene, they never could make him feel what he wanted, not that he wanted feelings that much.

Usually when Raphael wasn't working he would spend time with his sister. She was the light of his life, the reason that he created a life of sin for himself. He sinned so she didnt have to, he sinned so she didn't have to struggle or go without. It was an easy choice to make, one that none of his other siblings would.

Not many of them kept in communication with him going, they used his money to get their lives together and then ignored him, hoping that God wouldn't punish them for benefiting off of his sins. Raphael didn't mind, he understood. His sweet flower of a sister had never lost contact with him though, and that was all that mattered to him. She was the single most important thing in his life.

Well, now there is another important being in his life, his small omega. Rosa and Simon, that was what was important to him.

Raphael's peace was interrupted by the ringing of his phone. He considered ignoring it but he knew that would be a poor choice. Even though activity was down, he still needed to be aware of everything in his area.

"Hello?"

Hey guys, thank you to everyone who waited for me to return. Life has been really hard for me lately, I have more information on that on my message board. This chapter is shorter than my usual chapters, and this will probably be a more constant thing from now on.

I know the title isn't the best but it's the only thing I could think of, and I wanted to push out this chapter as soon as possible. So if you have any better ideas, feel free to comment them.

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Stay safe and Love Yourself.

- Nautilus