All I Ever Wanted

Chapter 3: Something Almost Good

For the next couple of weeks Harry, Campbell, and I hung out almost everyday after school and on weekends. Christmas break arrived and it was time to go to our usual Saturday morning breakfast at our local favorite diner. Harry picked us up and drove as Campbell and him talked about hockey the whole time. We got to breakfast I got waffles, Harry got an omelette, and Campbell an egg sandwich of course. When Harry dropped us off, so he could go to hockey, something felt different. I don't know, there was just a pit in my stomach of emptiness like something bad was happening. Nothing was bad, I had a perfect life with an amazing best friend and an almost ish boyfriend. I gave Harry a huge hug before saying goodbye. The moment I left the car, it was like the pit in my stomach grew 3 times the size. I had to ignore it. Campbell was coming over after we both got changed from breakfast. I think I was finally ready to tell him I was ready to be together. Harry was my best friend and nothing more I had to accept that. Each time I thought about Campbell I began to love the idea of him as my boyfriend even more.
Campbell came over about 2 hours later.
"Harry's practice should be over. I wonder why he hasn't texted me" I mentioned to Campbell.
Everyday after his hockey practice Harry texted me about how it went and how good he played. Campbell and I agreed that his phone had probably died or maybe practice ran late. An hour passed and I couldn't help but wonder why Harry hadn't texted me. I didn't think very much of it and decided I would call him in a bit if he still hadn't texted. The movie Campbell and I watched had just finished, and we were sitting outside on my deck again. I decided now was a good time to talk to Campbell.
"Remember about a month ago when you first moved in, I told you about the dark place I was in and how I wasn't ready to be with anyone."
He nodded. I was really nervous. What if he got tired of waiting and didn't want to be with me anymore.
"So over the past month I've spent with you and Harry, I've been in a very good place. Honestly this is the happiest I've ever been. I just wanted to thank you for being apart of making my life livable for me again."
I pulled Campbell in for a hug as tears started to roll down my face.
"I don't know why I'm crying. I probably look so stupid right now, but Campbell I'm ready to be with you as more than friends."
His face lit up and immediately he pulled me close for a kiss. As we kissed everything felt so right, besides the pit in my stomach which had now just been intolerable. I kept ignoring it trying to be happy with Campbell, it wouldn't go away. I knew Campbell wasn't the problem, so what was it? Maybe I ate something bad? Or I'm getting the stomach bug? I had no idea. Campbell stayed over at my house for the next couple of hours. As much I wanted to hang out with Campbell more it was getting late and I was exhausted. I basically forced him to go home after he asked to start another movie. He understood and claimed he was tired himself too. I felt bad but I knew I would see him tomorrow and we could spend even more time together. He gave me the kiss of a lifetime. By lifetime I mean that I felt it in my toes. I got in bed and my heart was pounding. I loved Campbell so much it physically hurt. Or that was the giant pit in my stomach that was still there. I called Harry three times and got no answer. Scared at this point and it being rather late, I figured it was best to get some rest. I'd go over to his house in the morning. I laid my head down to sleep and that was the last thing I remembered before jolting awake to the sound of my phone ringing.