Lover

Chapter 1. Love is Red

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Joe's POV:

Firstly, love is not easy. People might believe that it is the most wonderful feeling in the world but it is also just as hard. You have to give, take, regret, make mistakes, and always be afraid because when you truly love someone you are always scared of losing them. Always scared of hurting them.  You don't know what to do to make it right sometimes. And these type of feelings is the most horrible feelings in the world. 

But...

Secondly, love is also beautiful. It's magical and unique if you're with the right person. You slowly start to forget about all the troubles love casts you when you're with the right person.  And I was certain that my only soulmate was Taylor. My Lover. My Life. She was the type of girl all boys should pray for. A little stubborn sometimes and she does lash out when she is in a mad mood but I wouldn't have it any other way.  Our fights were the only barrier between us and sometimes they would get out of control.

Like right now the former feelings got the best of me. The feelings I was afraid to feel.  I tried to fall asleep but I couldn't. I was damn tired. So fucking tired but I couldn't sleep for the life of me. I tossed and turned on the bed all night ignoring the fact that I needed her. I needed Taylor. My baby.

I cut her thoughts out of my head only to have them in again after a few minutes. These are the type of things I regret the most.

Our fights.

And this time I took it too far. But I was never going to admit that. I was hurt too. She never understands what I have to say. This time she is not getting her way.

I looked at the clock and it read 5:37. I might as well get out of bed because I'm not getting any sleep anyway.

I toss my legs over and put my feet on the floor, ruffling my hair. I immediately shiver as soon as my toes hit the ground. It is getting colder and colder each passing day. December has started and it certainly is letting everyone know.

I head to the bathroom to freshen up and start my day. My stomach growled on my way, reminding me that I didn't eat dinner last night. Neither did she... I told my brain to shut up. I don't care if she's eaten or not. Yes, you do.

"Agggghhh!" I sigh. Trying to distract my self I start to brush my teeth. But my mind kept going back to last night events.

If we haven't fought like crazy people last night maybe we would have had some dinner. But I was the one who forced her to leave. I shouldn't have told her to go. I knew she didn't want to go but I forced her because my demons got the best of me.

My mind recalled her face, her tear-filled eyes at my words...

I spit the toothpaste out and run the faucet, blocking my thoughts from its noise.

But my heart kept repeating one thing over and over again.

I hope she's okay...
I hope she's okay...

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I got downstairs rubbing my face with a towel. She would most likely be at Andrea's house right now. Her parents were also staying in London, so she would be there. I hope her mom is taking care of her. She always does when I fail to. I'm so glad they're in her life. 

I turn the T.V on to block out the prevailing silence in the house and head towards the dark fireplace to light it up with some wood. I lit the fireplace and spread my hands to warm them up. It was snowing rapidly outside, getting colder by the minute. I went to sit on the sofa and watch some TV. It was minus four-degree Celsius according to the weather update. Shit! It's freezing cold outside. I think I'll ditch everything today and stay at home. I laid down on the sofa and looked up at the ceiling.

The house that Taylor and I bought together. It was our favourite. A big drawing room with lots of sofas, the longest sofa which we always laid in was right in front of the 42 inch LCD, where we watched all of our favourite shows and movies. Four bedrooms, a medium-sized library where we read all of our favourite books, well mostly she read, a backyard, garden and a huge parking space right outside the house. Our most favourite places in the house were the fireplace in the drawing-room, the garden on the back of the house and the library, and of course our bedroom. 

Some type of London fire department news was running on the T.V now in which I had little to no interest at all. All I could think about was how Taylor would be doing right now. I rubbed my forehead which was starting to hurt. Suddenly I heard muffled vibration voice coming from the other side of the drawing-room.

I got up and took out my phone which was under the cushions on the sofa by the window. I unlocked the screen and saw 28 miss calls from Andrea. What!!! Without thinking twice I called her back and stared out the window waiting for her to answer. It was something about Taylor. I heartbeat accelerated to thousands beats and blood rushed in my head. Shit!! My worst nightmares can't come true right now they just can't.

Fuck! I should have had my phone with me. Why did I freaking leave it here???!! Out of everything I hope she's okay...

Just as I was waiting for Andrea to answer, something outside the window caught my eye. Someone was in the car outside but I couldn't make out who it was because of the heavy snowfall.

My feet moved automatically to the front door, my phone was still on my ear ringing. The car was parked on the sidewalk in front of the house. It was Taylor's...

I ran, Andrea's voice came from the other line..." Joe where is Taylor?!!!" Without answering I shoved it into my shorts and ran like my life depended on it. Not feeling the cold air hit my legs anymore, all I could think about was getting to her.

I reached the car and saw the window was slightly open, the snow and wind were rapidly beating at it. I yanked the door open and saw her. Her face was turned to the other side.

"T- Taylor?" I stuttered her name through the cold and touched her face turning it towards me. It was colder than ice. Her lips were purple and there was frost on her eyebrows and nostrils, indicating that she'd been here longer than I could contemplate.

She had been here all night...

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