𝑬𝑼𝑷𝑯𝑶𝑹𝑰𝑨 [𝒐𝒏𝒆𝒔𝒉𝒐𝒕𝒔]

confessions | pumptacion

ship: pumptacion
requested: SymereCarter
notes: i love y'all :)

in which gazzy confesses his feelings to jahseh

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Gazzy sat in the back of his class, barely hearing a word his teacher was saying as he scrolled through his feed. He came to a picture of jahseh, his crush since 7th grade. Damn this boy is hot, he thought to himself.

he snapped back into reality as he hears his friend snapping in his face. "bitch, i know you hear me!" diego said, trying to get gazzys attention.

"what?"

"i need your help. im having terrible with this question," he says as he points to a problem on his worksheet. gazzy answers, without even looking up from his phone.

"uh, i don't know. 70, nigga?"

diego sighs, putting his head in his hands. "gaz, this is history class."

diego looked over his friends shoulder to see him stalking jahseh's Instagram. "ooh, you looking at yo future husband?" he says while laughing. gazzy playfully pushes him with his elbow. "damn! nosey ass bitch! how bout you shut the hell up fo' i tell everyone about the freaky shit you and kimetrius be doin at nigh-" diego covers his mouth before he can finish, causing gazzy to laugh uncontrollably.

the teacher glares at them. "excuse me! can you boys be quiet please!" she says.

"can you stop getting your wigs from walmart? bum ass bitch!" a student yells out, causing the entire classroom to erupt in laughter.

gazzy laughs quietly, going back to looking at jahseh. "you should just tell him. what's the worst that could happen?''

gazzy gives him a "bitch what?" look. "uh, he could think im fucking disgusting and out me to the entire school!"

diego turns to him. "you do know that he's openly bisexual, right?" when gazzy doesn't answer, diego laughs. "dumb bitch. everyone knows that."

gazzy frowns. "i'm in love with him, di," his voice just above a whisper. "i want him. so bad."

diego smiles warmly and lays a hand on his best friend's shoulder. "then tell him that," diego turns gazzy around so that their eyes meet, and gazzy can see the care diego has for him. "and if it goes wrong, i will always be here for you. i promise."

gazzy smiles, and at that moment, a feeling enters his body. he's not sure
confidence.

time skip: after school

after that class, gazzy took a deep breathe and dm'd jahseh, along to meet him at the park at 4. when he got the short reply of "yes", he screamed. he didn't stop smiling for the rest of the day.

and then 4 o'clock came.

gazzy paced under his favorite tree in the park, nervous as hell. everything finally hit him at that moment and he was anxious. what if jahseh just came here to prank him? or worse? what if he didn't show up at all? he'd look like a damn fool! what if-

the hand on his back startled him. he turned around and was meet by the face of one jahseh onfroy. his knees felt week and it took everything in his power to keep himself up. gazzy smiled and looked up at jahseh.

"hi, seh."

jahseh smiled that damned smile of his. the one that could make anyone in it's path melt at any given moment.

"hey, gaz."

gazzy looked into jahseh's eyes and suddenly, he didn't feel so uneasy anymore. he realized, this is jahseh. the same jahseh from middle school who once glued a teacher's chair and watched as they ran around with a chair stuck to their ass. this was goofy, crazy, possible satan-loving jahseh. jahseh was kind and gentle. he had absolutely no hate in his heart, accept towards those who decided to hurt his friends. then, there would be a problem. but gazzy knew he was safe with jahseh. and he knew whatever happened here today, they would leave with he same care for each other as they came with.

"i've missed you, gaz." jahseh smiled.

"same here." gazzy smiled back.

they talked for hours before it got dark. about the most random stuff. video games, high school, life. gazzy then realized he still hadn't told him his feelings.

"hey, jah?" gazzy looked up at him.

"yeah?"

gazzy took another deep breath. "i have to tell you something."

jahseh smiled. "what's up, cutie?"

gazzy didn't know how he was still standing. oh right, he was sitting.

gazzy didn't know how it happened. one minute that were sitting there and the next, lips were on lips, jahseh's hands on his hips, while gazzys cradled jahseh's head. they don't know how long they kissed. they just knew that they didn't want it to stop. ever.

unfortunately it had to. breathe soon ran out and they broke away, panting. gazzy didn't meet his eyes. he couldn't. so many thoughts ran through his head and he couldn't think straight. it wasn't until he felt jahseh's fingers lifting up his chin that he met those beautiful brown eyes.

"gazzy..."

oh no. gazzy knew he fucked up. (a/n- YOU DONE FUCKED UP- ok sorry) "it's okay, jah. im sorry. i'm so so sorry. I know you don't like me and-" jahseh interrupted him before he could continue. "gazzy?"

"yeah?"

"shut up."

and jahseh pressed his lips to gazzy's, warm and loving. it was slow and caring, something gazzy loved and appreciated.

it was over, but gazzy was still high from it's effects. he felt so calm.

"i love you, too, gazzy."

and that's all he needed to hear before gazzy threw himself in jahseh's arms, loving how safe he felt in them. they stayed like that for a few minutes before jahseh spoke up. "we should head back home."

gazzy started blushing for no reason. maybe just being around him made him feel butterflies. "yeah."

jahseh walked gazzy to his house, deciding he would sleep over.

they both fell asleep in each other's arms, happy and content to be together.

sorry, i know it's short. im tired. goodnight
~maya💙