Eternity

Chapter 7

Clark

I walked inside my chambers with haste while stripping down my suit the servants followed me and i didn't even mind that I was walking naked. I saw in the corner of my eye Octavia leaning in the doorway of the bathroom. "please don't say I told you so" i said in frustration. "nope.. Never.. In fact I want to congratulate you for a job well done. You did great out there.. -" "till I was defeated.." i said cutting her off as I slide myself in the bathtub. "you were distracted.. Again.. With her." she commented. I heavily sighed and pinched the bridge of my nose. "I'm fucking stupid.." i whispered. "you're just terrible in hiding your feelings.."Octavia commented. I turned to her and she smiled sadly. When will this ever be over.. How come I was just the one in pain.. How come I suffer? Did I do something in my past to have a life like this.. I watched her smiled, laughed and look at Costia with the same eyes that loved me dearly.. It should have been me..

2nd day

"Clark it's time to wake up" I heard Octavia's voice waking me up on my slumber. I rolled out of bed and sleepily walked inside the bath. Handmaidens immediately assisted me in removing my nightgown. I submerged myself in the water and heavily sighed. "you sighed quite a lot since you got here"Octavia commented." I'm just tired.. "i answered." tired of looking at Lexa and Costia? "she said teasingly. I look at her in deadly gaze and she laughed." I'm just joking Clarkieee...anyway the next event is charity works lead by none other than Queen Costia so.. If you want me to go instead of you-"" No.. I'll do it.. I don't want to give them a wrong impression for not going.. "i cut her off." okay then.. If you insist.. "Octavia said." what's the theme? " i asked." it didn't say.. I'll ask Titus later.. "she said. I nod in response." Alright get ready and look pretty okay? Make us proud.. "she said. I smiled then she went away. I sighed and walked out of the bath. My dresses are now hanged in front of me to select. I decided to wear a white haltered string dress exposing my back, the silk hugged every inch of my body and it ends just on top of my knees. I let my hair down and just wore a simple make. I work a silver heeled shoes with diamonds on the strap. I put on my drape crown which is a string white gold with a single ocean blue diamond on the center. It complemented my eyes so I was satisfied with my look. Just on cue Octavia arrived to escort me to the gardens where the charity event will be held. "you look gorgeous.." Octavia complemented as always to bring my spirits up. "You hot" i said in return then she laugh. We were met by lots Royals just hanging around the wide garden i decided to sit on the swing while waiting for the event to start. I saw Luna and Anya talking to each other when they saw me they immediately nod which I returned it with a smile. They seemed in a serious talk so I didn't dare interrupt them. Then trumpets began to reign announcing the arrival of Lexa and Costia we all bowed to them as they took seat at the center. Lexa guided her wife carefully and I immediately looked away. "Your majesties today is the celebration of mothers day in our land.. So Queen Costia decided to invite the orphans and let them have a family atleast for just one day.. The kids will select whoever royal they want and you will take care of them till tomorrow. Are you ready for this challenge?" Titus announced. I immediately felt my heart stopped beating and the world spinning. Octavia look at me with alarm." Clark hold it together "she said in whispered. When the kids arrived my hand became cold and clammy. I gulped down to calm myself. I turned to Octavia and she seemed in panic as she saw my face. She immediately ordered the servants to get me water." Royals please line up" Titus said. I held Octavia's hand. "Clark you want me to do it for you?" she said full of concern. I struggled breathing but still pushed myself "n-no.."then I walked towards the line up. I can hear my fast heart beating. I struggled to keep my posture straight. My forehead is sweating and I tried to wipe them off. Then the kids arrived full of happiness in their faces. I felt my tears are going to pour I tried composing myself but I felt my mouth dry as I saw their angelic faces. Then flashbacks of me on the floor while pools of blood surround me as I cried for the lost of my life. I look at Lexa and gasp for our eyes met, she crunched her brows and her green pools seemed confused and worried? As she look at me and look at the kids back and forth. I look away.. I can't do this.. I began to cry, I felt my knees getting weak, I was about to walked away when I bumped into someone I look at the person and saw those brown orbs full of concern. "Anya..." i whispered before everything went black.

Anya

I noticed Clark getting uneasy as she saw the children. She looked unusually pale and she seemed struggling to breathe. I was worried so I immediately walked towards her, I saw Lexa looking also at Clark full of concern in that green pools, she already stood up from her seat while Costia seemed too happy to realize what was going on. I remembered Octavia's story on how she lost her baby.. Maybe she's having a panic attack. That realization hits me which made me bolt towards her and just on cue she turned away from the crowd and bumped into me. I could really see the panic in that blue orbs. She passed out after she said my name and I immediately caught her in my arms. Everyone gasp and shocked to the unconscious body in my arms. The servants withdraw the children. I turned to Lexa and anger took over me. Then to Costia who's face didn't reflect concern instead she seemed happy?. Luna ran towards me and Octavia ushered us to the infirmary. Doctors immediately tend to us. I layed Clark in bed then walked out of the room. "where are you going?" Luna asked. "I'm going to find out this shit." I said so pissed off. I walked the long hallways and saw the person I was looking for walking towards me. I didn't mind Lexa and just talked directly to Costia. "You knew didn't you?! " I said angrily. Costia looked startled and shocked to my actions. Lexa immediately blocked my way in order to protect her wife. "What is wrong Anya?" she said. I smiled sarcastically and said "what's wrong? Wow Its good you asked Lexa... For once.." "what is your fucking problem.."she said. "my problem?!? You should ask your wife about that!" i look at Costia "you knew she lost her baby didn't you?!? Didn't you?!" i said with venom in my voice. I saw Lexa stucked in her place unable to move. "yes Lexa! When you were happy with your life she was suffering from depression all because of you!! The day you rejected her was  also the day she lost the baby, your baby!!! I told you to fix it but you didn't listen instead you married this girl you didn't even know!" i hysterically said." and you Costia I saw how you waited for Clark's reaction and you smiled victoriously when you saw her broke down!! " i saw how she panicked when I said those words she couldn't even defend herself." tha-that is.. Not true.. "she said with wide eyes." Anya stop it! "i heard Octavia shouted as she ran towards us." that's enough let's go.. "she tried to pull me away from Lexa and Costia." Octavia... " Lexa called her which made Octavia stop and turned to her." Is it true.. "she asked while tears began to roll down her eyes. I saw pain again in that green pools." did Clark.. Lost her baby.. Our baby.. "she asked again in pain." I- "Octavia said in hesitation but was immediately cut off by Lexa." please.. Tell me the truth.. "she said pleading her. Octavia began to cry and nod." yes she did.. She lost it Lex.. If you have seen her back then she was broken and lifeless.. She lost everything.. You took it all away. That's why I learned to hate you.. She doesn't deserve you not one bit. So I'm begging you to just stay away from her. You've done enough. I wanted to tell you back then but Clark insisted in keeping it a secret to the world. She carried all the pain while you were already moving on.. Now you know the truth I wish you never try to get involve with her just to elevate the conscience you felt. She doesn't need your pitty. It's too fucking late for that."Octavia said before turning around leaving us all in daze. My heart bleeds for Clark. I heavily sighed." you should have listen to me. "i said to Lexa before leaving her. I couldn't bear to talk to her or even look at her now.