Eternity

Chapter 8

Lexa

I felt my heart stopped beating those blue orbs invaded my mind from happiness to pain, her eyes were always that expressive. I felt numb.. Then I felt soft hands holding my arm "Lexa.."i turned to that person and met with dark brown eyes who look at me with worry. I didn't know what to feel anymore.. For a moment I forgot that Costia was with me.."I'm sorry Costia.. But I wanted to be alone for a moment" I said without letting her respond I walked away. My mind is going to burst, I felt all the pain and the sadness.. I wanted to see her.. I wanted to talk to her.. To hear the truth from her.. I wanted.. I felt my knees weaken and end up kneeling down. I hugged myself while crying my heart out. For the lost of my baby and for losing her as well.. I was too afraid back then I was too afraid to face the truth and end up not telling her about what I found out till anger swallowed me and end up having an affair with Costia.. I wanted to inflict the same pain I felt. She's never around and Costia was there to satisfy my needs, it was all intended for that but fate played well for she found us in bed. Out of anger I said those words. Out of pain I sacrificed the only person I ever loved. Out of fear I lost everything.. And now its too late to take it all back..

Clark

I woke up with a white blinding light hurting my eyes. I immediately turned away and later on adjusted my sight. I was in an empty white room, it seems I was taken in the infirmary of the palace, the last thing I remember is Anya looking at me full of concern. I heavily sighed and slowly get up, now they know how weird I am.. I hope Octavia made a pretty good excuse for me. I tried to find my shoes but it wasn't there so I decided to just look for Octavia without shoes on. Flashes of blood in my hands invaded my mind I gasp for air and tried to shake my thoughts away. I hate this.. I love children but I always end up having a panic attack after I lost my baby. I opened the door startled to see the Queen's handmaidens. "Your highness we're here to fetch you.. Queen Costia request an audience with you.." one girl said. I scrunched my brows. What does she possibly want from me.. I nod and still followed them instead. They took me at the maze of the garden and at the center is Costia sitting while calmly having tea. She smiled when she saw me." Clark I'm glad you accepted my invitation.. Come please sit down" she said. I took the other side and look at her cautiously. She seemed to notice it and smiled "you know I should be having that look given that stunt of yours.." she said while sipping her tea. "stunt?" i said. "oh you can stop pretending now there's no audience here to see how good your acting skills are." She said giving me a smirk. "what are you trying to say?" i said in scrunched brows confused of our conversation. She rolled her eyes put down her tea and said "oh Common we all know what happened at the charity event was just an act, I could see through you Clark.. You wanted attention.. You wanted people to get worry and you wanted Lexa's attention, my Wife's attention.. Isn't that right?" "wa-what?" i was shocked to her all accusations. She smiled sarcastically and stood up. "you wanted people  to pitty you.. You wanted them to take side.. Well guess what Clark.. I could never allow that to happen. You threw away your chances when you commit adultery, when you cheated.." she said with venom in her voice. I stood up all shaken up "what are you saying?!? I never did any of that!" I said in anger. How dare her accuse me of all this. They were the once who committed adultery, Lexa cheated with her.. She left me for her... "Really? Then what do you call this?" she said while throwing pictures in my face, when it was all scattered all around I saw me and Bellamy in bed. My knees weakened, looking at the pictures it seemed we made love.. I sat on the chair feeling fuzzy. "no.. No.. This can't be.." i said in whisper tears began to form in my eyes. I didn't do any of this.. could it be... I gasp and flashes of memories invaded my mind I was one of the party of Arkadia my head became fuzzy till I felt weak, arms envelope me.. I was able to see the generals face but I was too weak to stay awake the next morning my head hurts like hell.. And that was it. I look at her and saw Costia looking at me sizing me up. "did it refresh your mind?" she said. I cried and cried words are not enough to express the pain that hits me now. "while you were enjoying at the other man's arms Lexa was suffering trying to endure the pain and i saved her from all of it. I became the friend she wanted.. The lover that can satisfy her needs and the wife she longed to have. So don't just come barging in here after how many years claiming what's already mine!!!! Cause you don't have the right!! I'm now her wife and the Queen.! " Costia said with anger." now.. I'm done what I wanted to say.. You are dismissed. "she fakely smiled at me before finishing her tea. I slowly get up trying to composed myself. I weaved through the maze holding myself even if i felt very dizzy. My sight are blurry due to the tears. I felt betrayed.. I was framed and I wasn't able to do anything about it.. Now it's too late to even fix it.

Octavia

I slammed the door and commanded our soldiers to find the Queen. I panicked as soon as I found an empty bed in the infirmary. I ran around the castle but wasn't able to find her. I felt my heart beating fast worried about her. I saw Lexa with the rest of the Royals talking in the hallways I didn't dare to look at them and I wasnt even planning to talk to her when Luna caught my arm. "what's wrong Octavia you look uneasy?" she asked full of concern. I saw Lexa looking at me as well as other Royals "nothings wrong-" "Lady Octavia! She's not within the vicinity" i was interrupted by our own soldiers who looked frantic. Shit! I'm gonna remove their heads when this is done. "who's not within the vicinity?" Lexa asked with her deadly gaze. She look at me then our soldiers. The Royals are also waiting for our answer, Luna is giving me a questioning look. I gulped down the nervousness I felt then answered "Queen Clark is not in the infirmary when I went back, we looked all over the palace but failed to find her.." "Then why didn't you tell me ahead of time?!? You should know better Lady Octavia!" Lexa cut me off with anger in her voice. I looked down not meeting her deadly gaze. "Indra!!" she called. "Yes my Queen" Indra responded "Call all the soldiers to find the Arkadian Queen! I want her back before sun down!!" she commanded. Which was immediately responded by Indra she bowed and hastily walked away. "the rest of you! Utilise your warriors to find the Queen! No area should be left not searched." She continued giving commands even to the Royals which they complied automatically without questions asked. That's how powerful the grounder Queen is. In just one point of her finger everyone will bow and do what she pleased to do. They were dismissed till Luna and I was left with the angry Queen. " I'm so disappointed in you Octavia you knew the protocol and yet you let your emotions took over. If you hate me that much then hate me but don't risk your Queen's safety just because you despise me." Lexa said then she walked away. I know it was wrong but I don't want a person who destroyed her will be the one who will helped her. I don't want to give chances to Lexa and just repeat the damage she have done. The past was enough." common lets look for her.." i heard Luna said. And I immediately wiped my tears away and stood strong for Clark.