I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
I know you didn't want me to save you. I know you would much rather have jumped from that rooftop.
I followed you after lunch because I saw it in your eyes: Death.
But, I wasn't ready yet. I always knew I would lose you to death, I was already content with the idea that we would never end up happy together and I would never end up happy at all. Or, at least, I thought I was. But when I saw your eyes... I'm sorry I followed you.
I could hear your heartbeat, or maybe it was just mine, but, as you were standing on the edge, your warm breath creating little clouds in front of you, I knew I wasn't ready to let you go. Not yet.
I'm sorry for holding your hand and tugging on it so you were in my arms.
I saw your eyes. Emotionless, lifeless, empty. Maybe then I should have realized that you were already dead. Maybe if I knew it then, I would have stopped breaking myself. Maybe...
YOU ARE READING
Letters for her
PoetryThis is just my diary. A diary of a meaningless person with a meaningless life... Except for her, the girl I want to love so bad, yet I can't. Because she is art and art isn't meant to be loved. It's meant to be adored... Because, what really is art...