Of Matters of the Heart

Afraid

You rip out my heart,
Then somehow expect me to put it back.
I try on my own,
But it's all in vain.
I struggle with the emptiness you fill me with,
And with the knowledge that you no longer care,
I retreat into my own mind.

I want to escape,
I want to be free from these claws you have wrapped around me,

but i'm afraid

I'm afraid that no one will accept me as you once did,
I'm afraid that if I leave you,
I'll be leaving behind a chance for things to get better.
You tell me you hate what I do more often than you love,
You don't appreciate what I'm willing to give,
You don't appreciate me.

I see you standing there,
You apologize,
And each time I forgive,
But each time your words heal me a little less.

You have your talons sunk in deep,
And I wonder if you'll be able to let go.
You drain the life from me with your false promises
And hateful eyes,
And I give you empty smiles
And a broken soul.

Though you rip me to shreds with every hurtful word you say,
I will stay,

because i am afraid.