This is me.
ME AND WOMEN.
I feel like I need them.
I feel like they validate me.
I feel like I will be less queer without a girlfriend.
Do you see the boxes?
They are my queer protein bars.
I'm eating the protein bars,
I'm trying to fill up stomach
and heart with these women
but they don't help.
But the truth is,
these creatures do not validate me.
I am the same queer without them.
This is my tree of insecurities and sadness.
They are growing.
Even with all those women in my life.
I tried to kill the tree.
And now, I can't control it.
I still remember when it was just a plant.
I did not bother about it back then.
I wish I had.
Let me tell you a story.
I was with this beautiful woman.
With her, I had the best 45 days of my life.
My emotions were reckless.
I couldn't help myself.
I rushed myself into this relationship.
Because I thought I'd feel less queer/myself
without a woman in my life.
But turns out, SHE CHANGED NOTHING.
The tree of my everlasting insecurity and sadness and confusion
just keeps growing and growing.
