Poems

Toxic

Little authors note, I wrote these about the same person earlier this year so i'm going to write them all on the same page. I will divide them with ******

Every time you text me, I feel my chest get heavy.

It gets hard to breathe and anxiety courses through my veins

I wish we were the same as before.

When I talk to you, I feel like I'm drowning, time slows down.

You ruin me

But I can't seem to get enough of you.

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You are like a drug. An addiction.

I inhale your vapor and I want more. I can never get enough of you

You have me wrapped around your finger, and my heart is in your hand.

I can feel myself slipping into the toxicity of this addiction

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I crave for your attention I stare at the screen, hoping to see a text from you.

Even a simple hello will do.

I know i'm no good for you. and you don't want me,

Yet I hope you will stay.

A part of me knows you will leave

The other part hopes you leave.

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You make me insecure, I strive to be good enough for you.

We may have different views, You say I am enough

But I will never be. We both know you can find someone better

So I cherish this toxic time I have with you

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I never thought, I would feel this way.

This pain

This love

This vulnerability.

I feel weak, As if one simple touch, could break me.

You made me this way.

I hate you for this.

Yet I can't stop loving you.