isolation

isolatìon chapter 3

Jay pov…

Crazy how life goes by fast  nobody  love no more all they care about is money   just  thinking to myself    while   smoking weed with my cousin    while  laughing  and talking about school time    same time  I get a text 

Kacey: you better  change  your ways   I heard  everything and I don't know  you as no scamma   don't  even  text or call back 

I started  laughing   one person  came  to mind was kacey 
So I quickly  call  her and no  one answer so i leave  a voice mail said :

Hey i just  got back your  number and  like yesterday   I remember  seen you angry  at me  for not taking you serious  and  you go ghost on me and  wish I know  what going on  with  you but right now   I miss  you  more than  life it self  cause  I got  no one talk  to ,   I heard  you  in new York  hope  I see you  soon    and    I just  realized  I love you   but  I feel like I won't   live long     if am not  around no more  just  know   I love you   way beyond  your  thinking   I understand   some of us move on  and  some  live with  reject  but  I feel like  I live with the rejection of  not kissing you  when I should   hangout  with  you  ,more than  just   once  a while  
Hope you  forgive me  if  I ever do you  wrong,

Same time  I hang  up , i started feeling sad  so  emotional  for  expressing  myself   then after while i started  tell my cusion amma take a break  go  and   am out of the game for good  am going to st Ann to spend time  with my  grandmother   my life is not about money    and yall can take my clients    and everything  but my  money  coming with me   same time   every one was Kool about it  

………... 3 days later ……...
On my to st Ann  I got a text  from  kacey
  Look I love you  but right now  stay out of  trouble  I wanna  see you  alive  I will text you  once a month   don't  questions  my doing 
I reply  :do i look like  a worker to you or you man    which  one? 

Kacey reply  : for love  of God stop give me  attitude  I only  said for  reasons  please  work  with  me   just  be safe  BTW how much  money  you  have

Jay  :   1,000,000,  and  sum change     and i give away  80.000 to people  who  don't  have food    and 10,000 to a man who live on the  street  

Kacey reply :    smh  same  old Jay    look  I miss you     but  just  go enjoy time with  you  family    if you  have  to  go look for  your  mother  go do it  but I don't  like how that place  is running    and scared  to lose  you and bye I text  you  if I feel like  

After  she stop texting  I shake  my head I fall asleep on the  bus   while  there  sleeping  I feel the bus stop at St Ann bay I wake up    get off the  bus walk my way to  the taxi  to reach  my grandmother   when in people  talking  i started  sleepin  10 minutes  later i waake up i almost  pass my stop so i stopped the car  started walking  a distance to my grandmother  house  I   see my grandmother  through  her windows  I said  momma   I miss you     I run straight  inside   and huge  her   I said  mom I have  gift  for  you   same  time  hand her  100,000  she said  lock the  door   

I look at her she so  calm   and said   am happy  you alive  cause  it been years  I don't  see you  what going  on  with  you 

I started  told her  I was involved  in scamming  but I quit  
Cause  I did not  feel like  I was  earnings  something   so I stop  and  come here to have a  peace of mind    momma 
Same time  she smiled and  said  you have  good heart  fellow it 
Same time  the door push open  momma  hide the  money  
It was my uncle   pop up saying good evening     I say good evening  while  walking away  cause  I know  he don't  like me  so i went to my room all i do  is lay  in bed till my cousin who name  kemal  came from work   I felt  a sleep  wake up  in night   walking in the  kitchen   I see kemal  looking at  me   surprise