~抱きしめて~ Holding onto You

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Young Shouta just walked home from school. Grasping his school bag tight. He keep continue to walking till he passed some of gang who is sitting and chilling, " ey, is that a girl? " one of them asked as he look at Shouta's back. " i don't think so..he wears gakuran* that's a boy "

" hah? A boy? Oi, you high-schooler! " he called out make Shouta turned his head to them.
" oh wow, he's cute and pretty too.." he said grinning making Shouta eyes widen and fastened his pace.

" Should we make a Move? " another guy said " oh yes we should. " he grinned and drop his cigarette then step on it. Shouta keep walking, not caring about the footsteps behind him " Hey, where you going? " the guy pulled his hand to stop him

Shouta remained silent. He don't want to reveal his voice. But, he's scared.." can't talk or something?? " the guy said as he grab Shouta's hair. " oi, come talk! " he then pulled his hairs a bit making him winced. " talk!! "

" L-let go..! "

finally...he let out his voice. All of their eyes widen and laughed at him make poor Shouta look down " hahaha! What kind of voice is that, huh?! Are you a woman?! " that words...it hurts Shouta so much. " or a Transgender? Huh?! " the guy mocked him and they laughed again. Shouta struggled and finally he can pushed one of them but, he got tripped and fall to the ground slightly

" Heh, what you gonna do now? If you want to Live then give me all you have.." the guy spat at him and kneeled down to him " Come on. Give me your money " Shouta sniffed slightly as he use his arms as the support to lift his body.

His hand trembling goes down to his pocket, grab the money and slowly give it to the thug " Good. Good boy...Come on, boys, we leave this high-school bo-oh Girl..~ " he mocked again and leave with his boys while laughing.

Poor Shouta finally sat up and grab his bag again. He wipe his tears and stand up again.

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Now, Shouta only watched the window from the bed. Its already 2 days after what happen to him that...time. his eyes is dull, its like his soul have left his body. He can't even smile or laugh. The usual cheerful and out-going Aoi Shouta is gone.
Mamo sighed as he sat beside his kohai " neh, Shouta...i'm sorry for not come to you earlier " he begged the younger man as he only ignored him.
" Shouta.." he called out again " are you listening..? " he asked again but, Shouta continue to ignoring him.

" You should make him smile again, Miyano. "

Suzumura Kenichi words still haunting inside his head. He wants to make his kohai smile again but, how? Mamo know its his fault for making Shouta like this. " well, maybe..i will just leave you to calm down " Mamo said and left the room slightly.

A string of stears run down Shoutan's cheek. His lips trembling and hugging himself "...i-i lost hope of smiling..!" he sniffed. On the other side of the door, Mamo hear the cries of his Kohai.

" Shouta..if only i come to safe you in time. "

Mamo groaned and ruffled his own hair " Aa! Damn it.." he clicked his tongue and walk away.
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At the rehearsal room, now, Shouta is doing his role as Licht on the stage for Oushitsu Kyoushitsu Haine the musical. He was watching the other casts practicing, he just sit there silently while keep drinking water over and over. " Good work everyone! Its break time now! "

All the staffs clapped including the other casts. " Hahh, its tiring me! " said Hirose Daisuke who casting the role of Leonhard, " isn't it, Shouta-kun? " he asked while sitting beside Shouta " ah, yeah it is " Shouta said with a small smile " eh? What's wrong? "

" Yeah, Shoutan, what's wrong with you today? Usually you would jump around, laughing even joking but, now you just stay silent. " asked Asato Yuya who played as Kai, sitting closer beside him, " neh tell us what happen. "

He said again gently tapping Shouta's back. Shouta sighed and keep drinking " Oi oi, Shouta-san, don't drink too much. " said Ueda Keisuke: Heine. " You know if you drink so much water you will go to the bathroom again and again. "

" he won't tell us what happen. " said Daisuke, " yeah i also see the different from Shouta too.." said Adachi Yuto: Bruno who is wiping his hair with a towel " Come on Shouta, usually you will laugh, joking and jumping around with us..did something happen to you? "

Shouta gulped rub his arms up and down, " y-yes.."
Yuya then hummed " So, why won't you tell us before? We can try to help ya know? " he said patting Shoutan's back

" Shouta-san, its okay if you won't tell us what happen but you must stay strong. Our break time is about to end..you must focused on the stage as Licht. The cheerful character like you "

Shouta sighed but nodded
" Yes, thank you, everyone. " he smiled and everyone chuckled while patting his head. Suddenly a song was heard loudly through the whole room.

{Ikanaide -" Don't Go "}

nandemonai to kuchi wo tsugunda
honto wa chotto ashi wo tometakute
dakedomo kimi wa haya ashi de sutto mae wo iku kara
boku wa sore wo mitsumeteru
Say it’s okay, that it don’t matter anyway
But as I walk honestly I just wanna stay
Even though I praid that you would stay here with me,
i watched you walk away
And I cannot take my eyes off of you
saishuubin kimi wa noru boku wo oitette
hashiridasu yukkuri to jimen ga zurete iku
naicha dame naicha dame demo honto wa iitai yo
“ikanaide”
You catch a flight, you’ll be out of sight,
I guess that you’re leaving me
I start to run because you’re the one
slowly the ground’s moving
I shouldn’t cry, I shouldn’t cry,
but the truth is I want to say
Oh please don’t leave me...

Shouta eyes widen hearing the song, his eyes start to blurry but decided to hold it back ' why this song..?! '

tooku he to kieteiku boku wo oitette
mou zuibun mienai yo yoru ga kuzurete iku
naicha dame naicha dame demo honto wa iitai yo
“ikanaide”
You’re vanishing, you’re leaving me
& I can’t see you anymore
I look away, & I wanna say
the night is crumbling
I shouldn’t cry, I shouldn’t cry,
but the truth is I want to say
Oh please don’t leave me

Yuya notice that Shouta is trembling " Shouta? Are you-?! " he was shocked when Shoutan suddenly stand up and walk away from them " Sorry..!" he said and go to the bathroom, closing its door.
He slid down the door, covering his mouth as he cry there.

" I-I lost hope..."