~抱きしめて~ Holding onto You

6 Final part 1

Shouta woke up with blanket covering his body. He rub both his eyes and blinked a few times then yawned " ? " he turn on his side only to find his senpai is not there: he sighed in relief.

" At least...i can rest. " he said to himself and shrugged under the sheets. He feel himself sore and tired but, he decided to get up and tidy his bed then go to the bathroom to take a shower.

After he done, he feel weird in his stomach, he cover his mouth and quickly get on his knees and throw up in the toilet. He panted and coughed holding his stomach.

" uhh..." he groaned flushing it and clean his mouth again.

" i feel weird..."

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Now, all the Utapri cast is take a break together, Mamo can't help but keep staring at Shouta while Suzumura keep asking him, " hey, did you get his smile again? "
" i can't ... " Mamo said in full of sadness, Shouta keep ignoring him even though they already have sex yesterday and just talking normally to his other senpais and...laugh with them.

Mamo wish that Shouta can smile like that to him, and laugh to him the way he do to others. Mamo sighed and drink the water.
Mamo wish that he can make Shouta smile again, laugh at him again and everything.

Mamo decided he can't take it anymore, he then get up and grab Shouta hand dragging him away
" M-Mamo-nii?! "

The other seiyuus look at them in confused, " what was that just now..? " Kishow asked as Suzumura only reapond by smile

" we never know.."

A sound of a door closing, Shouta was pushed againts the wall and a hands trapped him in between *Kabe-Don* Mamo stared into his eyes with...that expression.
Shouta gulped and he look down to avoid his senpai's expression " w-what do you want..? " He asked lowly as Mamo groan and roughly lift his kohai chin up

" Shouta...do you still want to continue your career? "

" y-yes, Mamo-nii.."

" We also have a promises to sing together right? "

Shouta eyes widen but nodded

" Can i..stay by your side? Can i holding onto you? "

Younger man eyes widen more and he blushed " y-yes..you can "
Mamo gulped and he can smells the scent of Shouta: sweet and smooth.

" Why won't you...forgive me.? "
Mamo asked again now and Shouta can hear a sadness in his tone.
Shouta eyes goes up to meet his senpai, suddenly he can feel something in his stomach: its weird.
Shouta only gulped and his hand slowly grip his senpai shirt

" l-let go.." he whispered but Mamo won't budged. " i won't...not until you forgive me, Shouta! " His voice now getting high and this make his kohai surprised.

" I want you to forgive me!! I know its my fault! I only want you to forgive me! That's all! "
Shouta lips trembling. What should he do? Forgive his senpai or not? He know that he is not the type who can hate on someone else especially his own Senpai.

Mamo breathed out when Shouta gripped his shirt more " j-just let go...M-Mamo-nii " Mamo eyes widen and he feel triggered by shoutan words so, he grab the younger man both shoulders roughly shaking him

" why won't you forgive me, huh?! I know its all my Fault but, i want you to forgive me!! I want to make you Smile again! I want to see you Smile!!
Shouta, look at me...! Am i not good enough as your nii-san?! Huh?! TELL ME-?! " His words was cut off when he see Shoutan eyes watery and he was sobbing and letting out a..whimper. Mamo panicked when he see Shouta crying...because of Him.

" no...Sh-Shouta..i didn't mean to..Shouta..I'm sorry..! " Mamo said as his grip is loosen but still holding his kohai shoulders while the younger man only buried his face in both his hands and sobbed.

" Shouta...Shouta..no..i'm sorry..! I'm sorry! " he keep pleading him...how could he do this to his own Kohai..?  Shouta trusted him as a good senpai and Nii-san but he hurt Him again

Mamo then hugged Shoutan while he try to push him away but, his senpai keep hug him tightly " No..Shouta...i'm sorry..! Please, i didn't mean to " he let go of his kohai, grabbing his face and wipe the tears who is keep falling from his eyes.

Shouta sniffed and wipe his tears...he look down then face his Senpai with a sad expression. Mamo keep cupping his cheeks gently

" Shou-chan...i'm sorry "

He whispered softly. Shouta remained silent. His hand turned into fist and being hugged again by his senpai

' Mamo-nii...i'm sorry too.. '
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