My Lost Journal (An RPW Thing)

4 ㅡ my experience (2)

Written by: cutiehyunjins

Entry: diary

halu, it's me again, your lousy writer.

So we just broke up. Yup, the day after he told that he has something to tell me.

Idk why. But i literally cried.

Last night, December 3, 2019. He finally said it.

I was hurt but i felt a huge relief at the same time.  You're asking me why? Okay, i was hurt because our 'thing' had finally come into an end. Bc i know there will be no more conversations with u. No more sweet talks, and yes i just lost u.

But u know why i felt relieved? It's bc finally i let myself free, even u. You're finally free. We're now free from each other. It was like we're a baby bird who just grew up and just flew in the air for the first time. lol. Like a we've been free from a chain which was tied up in our neck.

Thank you, i wanna say thank you Ashred. Thank u bc you've finally said it. I won't waste my time waiting for your tiny replies anymore hahaha. I won't be sad if u can't chat me, i won't be looking at your chat head anymore and lastly, i won't force myself to stay with the person who doesn't like me anymore.

I know you don't like me anymore, you can't just say it. You just don't want me to hurt real bad. But it's fine. I have my guts, so i already knew.

Ashred, can we still be friends? You've said we could just stay as friends, but can we really do that?

I mean, it's too awkward. We are in the same groupchat, isn't it too awkward if you have the same group of friends with your ex? damn.

You've chatted me earlier. Around 8am. You've said "goodmorning" "kamusta" and such.

It's too awkward!!!

can't u get it dude?

i'm on the process of moving on.

i wanna forget my feelings towards u.

i wanna lose it, just like how i've lost u.

so please, hurt me more. DO NOT CHAT ME.

Because if you'll still chat me, i'll have these certain thoughts. Like maybe you're still into me bc you keep on chatting me.

marupok ako.

damn ash :((

please hurt me. tell me u don't like me so i won't have this little hope, hoping that u and i, we still can comeback w/ each other.

please hurt me. find someone new. i want to feel jealous. please please please. :((

i don't wanna like you anymore.

I hope u won't chat me this time, this day, and in the next following days. Please don't.

Let me forget u. iwy.