My Lost Journal (An RPW Thing)

6 - my experience (3)

Hi, let me ask you.

Have you left someone before? if yes, have you tried to talk to them again?

So when do you plan to leave? or did you succeed to hurt them again already? —woops, mali ba ang tanong ko?

Pero yun sa tingin ko ang tama.

Leaving someone behind without any sign must've hurt real bad. But coming back to them, talking to them suddenly without giving any explanations on why did you left them before and acting like nothing happened must've hurt even more!

Bakit ka babalik? Do you even deserve a chance? 

Ang kapal naman ng mukha mo para bumalik pa at tanungin ako kung:

"Kamusta kana?" "May bago kana no?" "Bilis mo naman ako palitan" "Okay kana ba ngayon?"

at isumbat sakin ang pinagsamahan natin noon:

"ang cold mo naman, para namang di mo ko minahal noon ah?"

Hindi niyo ba talaga maintindihan? O pinipili niyo lang na magbulagbulagan?

Hello?! Ako to! —si natoy na mahal na mahal ka!

kidding aside.

Bumalik na naman si Ash. It's really a bad idea to have a group chat with your ex. Well, some of you will not agree with me — only if you had a good closure with your ex.

Since Ethan and Coreen are having a mutual understanding. Hindi talaga maiiwasang hindi ako maisama sa kanilang mga usapin. Lalo na si Coreen, she's helping me to cope up, tinutulungan niya akong mawala ang awkwardness namin ni Ethan, because he's the bestfriend of my ex. And since our break up happened, lumayo na din ang loob ko kay Ethan.

Ethan has been my friend ever since. It is just absurd, that he didn't even bother to talk to me regarding the relationship i had with his bestfriend. I thought he would console me, to feel better and not hurt, but it happen otherwise. I guess, i am really not that important to other people.

Bumalik si Ash, as if nothing happened. I think it's around January? 1st week i think? And i really hate it!

But here i am...still talking to him.