Where Lust Lies

Impulse

Thank God it's Saturday. I don't have to leave my apartment. I tend to spend all weekend here sulking in my guilt and shame. I roll over to see two dozen black and blue roses, a box containing a rose gold watch, and a card that reads: "My Queen last night was perfect, just like you. I'll let you take the day to rest but by nightfall you're all mines check your closet and I'll be over to pick you up at 8pm. I love you. -Nate.
My heart is so heavy right now. I roll over and start to cry like a newborn. What do I do?? Should I tell him that I slept with Caleb? Or should it even matter if it'll never happen again. I'm so hurt I pick up my phone to call Caleb but I couldn't bring myself to do it. I spend another twenty minutes laying in bed staring at the ceiling, drowning in my own tears. I'm hurting so badly. I stand and throw on one of Nate's oversized hoodies and walked to the kitchen. As I put my roses in a vase and throw back a bottle of wine, there's a knock at the door...
"Who is it?"
"Open the door Kyomi, it's Ariana."
I unlocked the door and to my surprise find Caleb standing behind her. I walk away from the door and over to the living room. What could they possibly want. Does she know?? I sat on the sofa and looked up at them both. I throw the bottle back. Even in his weekend wear he's still so beautifully hand crafted. A flashback of our explicit rendezvous invaded my thoughts and I feel her becoming moist. My face became hot and I was blushing. I looked at Caleb that was noticing what was happening, he licked his lips and smiled. I damn near melted. I clear my throat. Ariana sits and open her briefcase to give me paperwork from yesterday's meeting.
"Kyomi I heard you've been under the weather. I decided to bring you the discussion on yesterday's meeting and some soup my mom used to make for me." "Thank you Ari." I stand to take the soup into the kitchen, instead Caleb takes the soup from Ari and motioned for me to stay seated. My eyes followed his well crafted frame to the kitchen, he's so-
"Kyomi, why are you day drinking? How are things with you and Nate? I heard the dress appointment was rescheduled. Don't tell me you're getting cold feet."
Her words rang through me, breaking me completely. He was to propose to me. I couldn't help myself from crying. I avoided that first question.
"We're great honestly things couldn't be better." How do I tell my best friend that I cheated on the best man a girl could ever want?? The way she's looking at me she can tell there's something I'm hiding.
"Okay Kye I won't ask again, you have a good man. The kind of man a girl can only dream about. I want what's best for you." I looked at her and took her hand, "Thank you Ari you're the best." We stand and hug each other like it was our last time breathing. "I have to run. My parents are here for the weekend."
"Okay tell them I said hi and give your brother some love for me. Oh and Ari thank you for everything." She smiles as she head out the door. "I'll
let your partner catch you up on everything call me if you need me." She shot a look at Caleb that could've given him a vasectomy. I closed the door and proceed to walk to my kitchen where I see Caleb had arranged my flowers and prepped for brunch. He hands me a mimosa and place the paperwork in front of me. "Kyomi we don't have to speak on anything I just want you to eat and look over the case. New evidence has given them the upper hand we may lose this one." I nonchalantly sipped the juice and looked over the documents. He's right we may lose this one. There's new evidence that puts our client on the scene with the victim and his prints on the murder weapon. I sighed. "We're fucked." I said as I pack the paperwork away. I walked to the bedroom to grab my phone and I noticed I only had on sleeping shorts and Nate's hoodie. I grab my black sweatsuit and walked into the bathroom to get my shit together. I locked the door and turned on loud 90s R&B to drown out the sound of me pleasing myself. I'm so wet. How is he doing this to me? "Fuck" I moaned. My left hand is massaging my clit while my right hand is sliding the vibrator in and out of my wetness. My phone rings, I stop and grab it.
*Incoming call from Nate*
I turn my vibrator off and answer.
"Hey beautiful how are you feeling?" His voice is so sexy I almost forgot how sexy it was. I smiled.
"Hey babe I'm feeling a lot better now that I've heard your voice." He laughs a little. I smile. God I love this man.
"I'm glad you're feeling better baby. I'm sorry I couldn't talk Ari out of seeing you this morning I told her you were under the weather but she and Caleb insisted that they see you to get you caught up. Is everything okay?"
I sighed.
"Baby we lost this one I know we did, the new evidence is too spot on. There's no corners to cut no lines to bend there's no anything. We're fucked."
He sighs.
"Babygirl I'm sorry to hear that but I can't accept that from you, I know you and honestly that sounds like you've just accepted this loss that hasn't happened. You need to go back and look over everything." I roll my eyes. He's right. "Thank you baby for everything the flowers and watch are beautiful. I will look over the documents one more time. I love you I'll see you later."
"I love you too Queen if you need anything call me." The call ends. I don't even have the urge to finish myself off. I gather myself and walk into the kitchen where I find a brunch fit for a Queen and Caleb sitting at the island sipping orange juice looking over the case. He looks up, "Kye look at this, something isn't adding up." I walk over to him grabbing a biscuit that was so buttery and fluffy my mouth began to water. I glance at the documents. He's right something is off. I fix my plate and sat next to him. His cologne is so hypnotizing. Just the smell of him alone makes me hot and bothered. "Kyomi? Are you even paying attention? Look at the time stamps on the evidence log, it's clearly been tampered with. Plus there's no way our client could've been two places at once. The time stamp for the dna evidence says he gave dna 'Thurs 2:02am' which is impossible because I personally was called to his home at 10pm and I didn't leave until 4am. There's no way he could've given dna that day." I'm baffled.
"Caleb are you saying the dna sample was tampered with?"
"No. I'm saying that's not our clients dna because he didn't give dna. Only his fingerprints were a match on the weapon but not one print on the victim." He is so smart, he's turning me on. The way his brow wrinkles when thinking and the way his jaw clenches when he's getting angry he's so fucking hot. Get your shit together Kye.
"We have a chance here, we could win this. Plus his fingerprints are supposed to be on the murder weapon, it's registered to him. Caleb, this is our big break!" I smile and stand to go get the bottle of tequila out of the cabinet and two glasses of ice.
"Kye, um I don't day drink beautiful but do your thing."
He licks his lips and proceeds to look over the casework. He's such a tease. I feel my wetness intensify as the feeling of the events that occurred yesterday overtakes me.
"Caleb it's one celebratory drink. You're an intelligent man and I love having you as my partner." He takes the drink and smile, I take my glass and bottle to the island where I sat eating. As I am drinking and finishing my meal I notice that Caleb is in deep thought. He sighs, "I heard Nate is going to propose at the honors banquet. Congratulations beautiful he is lucky to have you." I smile and fill my glass again. How am I supposed to let Nate propose to me after I cheated. I down it, and then the tears started. Caleb stands and take the bottle away from me and put the food away. He then takes me by the hand and leads me to the couch. I'm most definitely feeling those drinks now. I'm an emotional wreck. Caleb sits beside me and wipe my tears. "Why are you crying Kyomi? Talk to me. I know what we did was wrong but you can't look me in my eyes and tell me it didn't feel right." He's right what we did was wrong but I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't do it again. I'm still very much in love with Nate and I'll never leave him for anyone he's the love of my life. "I'm in love with Nate. He's my world and I can't act like I don't want to marry him. It's my dream to be Mrs. Jackson. Caleb I love the way you make me feel the way you touch me and kiss me drives me mad. I'm addicted to you, my body craves you, but I cannot be with you." He sighs. I can tell he's getting frustrated. "You do something to me Kye, you're so beautiful it's dangerous. Your body is perfectly sculpted. Even the way you breathe is sexy. You're captivating I need you just as much as you want me." He leans in to kiss me. Holding my face in place I French kiss him back. He starts to unzip my jacket, exposing my perky breast and hard nipples. I moan as he kiss my chest. I'm still crying I can't stop the tears but I can't stop him either. I tilt my head back as he kisses down my peanut butter brown skin. He then untie my sweatpants and slip them off. I knew what was coming next so I opened my legs for him to devour me. I can't stop shaking and he won't stop licking me. The room is spinning thanks to the wine and tequila I was drinking earlier. He feels amazing. He's kissing and sucking all the right spots I feel my breathing become heavy and slow. My heart is racing out of control. I try to push him away but he have his arms locked around my thighs. "Caleb please." I whimpered.
"I want you all to myself beautiful. Cum for me." He says through broken words while he's still eating me so effortlessly. And without even thinking my body begins to tremble my toes curl and I cry out his name, "CALEB!!" He stops and I see he's rock hard. He kisses my forehead and walk out the front door. I lay there in my filthy wetness. I know I'm faced with only two options: one, I tell Nate and break his heart or two, I break up with him and break his heart.
*INCOMING CALL FROM Nate...

"Babygirl, have you checked your closet yet?" Fuck I silently whispered I ran to the closet almost tripping over my own feet because my legs are so weak.
I reach the closet and there it was the most beautiful gown I've ever seen, with a note attached that says "wear me."There's also single strapped heels and a new pair of chocolate diamond earrings with the matching necklace. I fall to my knees. I'm completely disgusted with myself. I sighed. "He's proposing tonight." I thought to myself as I rolled over and cried silently in fetal position. "Babygirl are you there??" I reach for my phone. "Baby I'm here, the gown is so beautiful everything is really stunning my King I love you and these gifts so much!" I said through a tear streaked face.
"I'm so glad you love them... you deserve the world and I'm going to give it to you. I'll be there shortly baby I love you!" The call ends and I lay there in silence, For a moment before getting up to get myself together....