The Only

Forever Rain

Not only was this morning's temperature the coldest it's been in a while, but the weather couldn't be any uglier. It reverberated gloominess and sadness; something that I knew all too well, but the atmosphere caused any hopes of my mood brightening up to go straight down the drain. The sun was nowhere in sight due to the numerous blotches of clouds that covered every crevice of the sky. It was grey, bland, and dark, inducing absolutely zero motivation in me to attend school this morning. I lugged an umbrella as a precaution, but to my surprise, it didn't rain the whole way.

When I left Jimin behind, he was still dead asleep--unmoving. He's been overthinking and stressing himself out lately, so he's been staying up working on that damn song he's cooking up. He's starting to doubt himself. There was no other explanation for his worries besides the chance of making a fool out of himself in front of his crush. I'm not that psyched to go and help him, but if there's a possibility that I get to witness him acting like a clown, then I'm up for it.

Only kidding.

Kind of.

On that note, being a decent friend is hard sometimes. Receiving zero sleep last night wasn't anything new, but it made my condition worse. I wouldn't have gotten up this early solely because of that, let alone the godawful weather that darkened today's aura. But, if it's for Joohyun to hand her some papers, then fine. My hands were tied on this one anyways. A favor's a favor, especially when I offered. 

Still, a mental complaint invited itself inside my head. I mean, Joohyun wakes up at an absurd time to go to school. I have no idea if it's a student government thing or what, but arriving before the crack of dawn? Not my thing, nor my style. What was even more unbelievable was finding her working in the courtyard by herself.

God, is she an idiot?

It's cold as hell, and she didn't bother to wear proper attire.

What if it rains? Where's her umbrella?

I sighed audibly. The complex was near to being deserted. There were only a few students in front of the entrance or walking around the complex. Her student council friends hadn't arrived yet, nor did any of the guys.

Yes, it was that early.

I mulled over the same question: does this woman ever sleep? I feel like all she does is work, work, and work.

It was heavily concerning.

As a best friend, I have every right to be concerned, right? It's not out-of-character at all.

Knowing of my experiences with sleepless nights, I can empathize with Joohyun. She, on the other hand, has it much worse than I do. The main difference is: I don't have a job to attend to or a leadership position as head of my own class. Let alone, all the schoolwork and other nonsense that she must have piled up in between her crazy schedule. I give her a lot of credit for upholding and continuing to maintain the amount of responsibilities that she has. 

I would not be able to do what she does, that's for sure. I can barely do the minimum; dealing with people and being positive all the while. I can't even muster a polite smile to random strangers without it seeming forced or sarcastic. Thing is, I'm not sure too many have the mental capacity to deal with the things that she does.

Plus, who likes being overworked to the point when you lose sleep?

Out of genuine curiosity with a hint of concern, I decided to ask her if she was okay, but it seems like she beat me to it. Perhaps my sluggish walk, my heavy eyelids, and the bags under my eyes were the main indicator of my tirelessness. Not only that, but I'm unable to form a coherent sentence, or think properly.