Pretending

Chapter 16

"He...what?"

I stare down at Antonio's phone, yes I know this is snooping, but his phone dinged and I couldn't help but look, I mean we were... friends, we could trust each other.

I guess I was wrong.

I feel tears welling up in my eyes, but I have to will them away, I can't cry, this is stupid, I was never supposed to feel anything towards Antonio, I was supposed to be his fake girlfriend, that's it, I was never supposed to feel like this.

I place his phone back into the cup holder and clench my jaw, trying to have my tears disappear, Antonio gets back into the car. I look out my window, ignoring his presence.

"Gas prices these days, terrible, am I right Nix?" He asks, I can imagine a smirk on that adorable face of his, but I refuse to look, I can't look at the liar I thought of as a friend.

"Mmmhmm," I say, eyes glued out to the window.

"Hey, Nix? You ok?" He asks, putting his hand on my left hand, all of my nerves started to go wild and I can only focus on his hand on my hand.

"Drive Antonio," I say taking my hand away and putting it away from where he can touch it again, my eyes start to water and I let tears fall, trying to hide my whimpers as he drives me home.

When we reach my house, I wipe my tears, I won't let him win.

I look over at him and he looks confused with my weird behavior, I gather my words and take a deep breath. Already hurting. 

"Is it true," I ask.

He looks even more confused. "Is what true?"

I can't take it anymore, I let out all of my anger, frustration, and feelings out on him, not being able to contain them anymore.

"You know exactly what! You used me for your own selfish advantage! You are by far the worst person I have ever met, is this what you think is ok? Using me? How did you think this was going to end? Me falling in love with you? Well, you know what? You win. I fell in love with you, and I wish I never let my heart be persuaded by you, I should have never trusted you, but I did, and it's my own fault for falling in love with you. Never again."

After yelling all of this to him, he looks hurt, guilty and confused.

He swallows and finally speaks. "It wasn't meant to go this far, I swear, but...how did you find out?"

I grab his phone and find the text that made me regret anything that has happened in the past couple of months.

'Matt: Dude you won the bet, make her fall in love with you in 2 months, I'll give you the 50 when we get to school."

He reads the text and looks down in guilt.

"You deserve so much better, I am so so sorry, I guess in the beginning it was for the money, but everything's different now, I-I love you, I feel in love with you as soon as you agreed to this fake relationship, I knew you were different than all of the other girlfriends I'd had... then I only wanted to be with you for real, and then I felt bad because of the bet. I am so so sorry, please, please forgive me." He says starting to cry.

"No, you know what you did, and that is unforgivable, good luck telling your grandma about this." I say getting out of the car and before slamming the door I say: "Goodbye Antonio." I slam the door and run to the house, my heart breaking with every heartbeat I take, I run-up to my room and fall on the bed crying.

This is stupid, I was never supposed to fall in love with the schools bad boy, I was only supposed to pretend that I was in love with him, for his grandma, my feelings never were supposed to be real, they were supposed to be fake, I let my guard down for some stupid boy who used me, for a measly $50 bucks. I felt terrible, why did I keep doing this to my heart?

Why did I let my guard down for him?

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AHHHHHHHHH

ok sorry.

Cheyenne