Poems by me lol

Ok I was kinda wrong

So I found one more thing I could add. 

I was supposed to write two paragraphs that were the same paragraph just in different tones. It's based on when (spoilers!!! for Madoka magica episode 8-9) 

Sayaka becomes a witch.

Also I believed at the time that if you fought a witch in a labyrinth and died, you became a witch inside a labyrinth so no one ever found you. Not that you just died. :/

I was stupid, so stupid. I shouldn't have taken that deal, but at the same time I'm glad I did. But now, I surrounded by everything I ever used to love. I have nobody. I can't hear. I can't speak. I can only watch. Watch my despair destroy everything I now love. It's all my fault. Why? Why did she save me and destroy herself? She knows if she dies here, no one can save her. Just let someone else kill me, someone stronger, that way they can live and so can you, and I can be at peace. Now you're going to become what I have. Forever. What? What is that? I see a bright light, but it isn't white. It's orange. No. It's her. It's her. Why did she become this? For me? I thought she hated me. She tried to kill me. She has always been selfish. Not hesitating to let people die if it benefits her. When did that change? Maybe, it hadn't? A friend always that her intentions were never bad, especially from her perspective. She did lose everything from just trying to help. Now that I think about it, she did try to warn me about my wish. She was right. Maybe she sees this as her mistake. One that just needs to be fixed, or atoned for. Though, ever since I met her, she hasn't made any mistakes. Is this a mistake? I think so, or at least I should. But no. It isn't. She did this on purpose. She knew and accepted what she needed to do—what she did. Did she love me? Or at least care about me? I wouldn't think so. She hated me. Then why did she do this? Maybe she did love me. And you know, I wouldn't mind if she did.

Why was I so stupid? But that's fine. I shouldn't have taken the deal, but it's only natural that I did. I caused pain and ruined someone close to me's dream. I hurt him, and it was supposed to be me. He sacrificed everything for me and regrets it. I wanted to help more than anything and when that deal had shown itself, I couldn't help but take it. I hate myself for taking the deal, but I'm happy with what I did with it. I guess it's fine that I'm here now, but I much rather not be. I'm surrounded in my mistakes. It is all my fault. If I hadn't gotten into that accident so long ago and he wasn't there to save me, I wouldn't need to make that wish. She told me not to help others with my end of the deal, I wish I would have listened to her. Now that I think about it, if I go all the way back, it really wasn't my fault. I guess I can complain because initially it wasn't my fault. Ha. Thanks god. You were a big help. I think she did this because she's selfish. Yeah, that's it. Hey, what's that light? Oh no. It her amalgamation. Why did she sacrifice herself for me? Just run away and let someone stronger kill me. Then we'll both be fine. You know what? Screw her! She wanted this. She's just selfish. And that's fine. That's her problem. But why did she let others die even if it benefited her? According to the other end of the deal, we should be helping people. She's so annoying like that. She always did what she wanted. Why did my friend always say that her intentions weren't bad? Of course they were! She just let them kill a few more because she'll get something out of it. That doesn't sound like good intentions! She never changed. She was always selfish. Maybe her selfishness is what led to her not making any more mistakes. Is what she did a mistake? Was saving me a mistake? Yes of course! I have no idea why she did this. What if... What if she loved me, deep down? Is that even possible? I saw that smile on her face as she did i it. Maybe she did. I guess, it wouldn't be so bad. Who am I kidding? She hated me! I don't deserve to flatter myself like this. But it's still nice to think she did this out of love.